{
  "bookId": "chayey-moharan",
  "part": "1",
  "torah": "92",
  "title": "Siman 92",
  "hebrewTitle": "סימן 92",
  "sourceUrl": "/reader/chayey-moharan/1/92",
  "plainUrl": "/reader-plain/chayey-moharan/1/92/",
  "segments": [
    {
      "index": 1,
      "he": "שַׁיָּךְ לְהָאָלֶף-בֵּית [סֵפֶר הַמִּדּוֹת] לְעִנְיַן",
      "en": "(12.) He told that in his youth he was accustomed to eat a great deal, and he suffered from this. And he cast this [habit] aside. And he then saw that he had a craving also for that little which he ate — and he reconsidered and began to eat again, for what difference does it make to him whether he eats a little with craving or a great deal? And why should he ruin his body for nothing? And he would place all the [other] cravings within this one craving of eating.\n\nOne time he was sitting at the table by his father-in-law's home at the third Sabbath meal, sitting in a corner, and the house was dark. And as was always his custom, he was doing what he was doing — and he began to beseech Hashem Yisburach that He show him the forefathers — Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob. And he made a promise to Hashem Yisburach: When You show me this, I will also cast aside even this craving [that is, of eating]. And he did whatever he did in this, and entered deeply into this — and he fell asleep. And his grandfather the Baal Shem Tov of blessed memory came to him in a dream and told him the verse [Deuteronomy 11:15]: \"And I will give grass in your field for your cattle.\" And he awoke and it was a wonder to him — what connection does this verse have with what he had asked? And it occurred to his mind that in the Tikkunim [page 62b] it says: Eisev [grass] is the letters ayin-beis-shin — ayin-beis is the pupil of the eye, shin = three patriarchs. And this means: if you wish to see the patriarchs — it is impossible for you [unless] \"b'sadcha livhemtecha\" — \"in your field for your cattle\" — you must subdue the animal craving of eating. And he also cast aside even this craving.\n\nAnd he said that this story is connected to [the story of] the receiving of Torah mentioned above. In the manuscript of Chayay Moharan it is written above [before] this letter: \"A story about the receiving of Torah [which is the story of the bread].\" And through this you will understand the word \"mentioned above\" [ha-na\"l]. And he commanded that this story also be retold.\n\n[The transcriber says: I heard that Rav Nissen Kavlier told — one of the greatest of those close to the holy tzaddik Rav Baruch of blessed memory — before the maggid [preacher] of Tiraovitze of blessed memory, a story similar to this. And the maggid said: If I had heard in my youth that it was possible to serve G-d and to attain holy matters as Rabbainu did in his youth — I would have done as he did. And this is similar to what is known from the statement of the Baal Shem Tov of blessed memory — that it is said a great tzaddik does not descend from his level, and he told the story of the Baal Shem Tov regarding this, which is known. And this story of Rabbainu's youth — how he served G-d in his youth — is very awesome and wondrous, and shows us something of his exalted greatness.]"
    }
  ]
}