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Tape 9G, Side Aleph

קסטה 9G — צד א

Segment 1

Sixty-three years ago. And sixty years it was completely secret. No one knew — not… Only to my children I told the matter. Yes. But… And also there were a few — select individuals — who were holy tzaddikim and friends of mine — I told them. And they accepted it. A wonder — how — how can one accept this? This is beyond — beyond nature. Nu. And they accepted it. The matter was — I must speak — I must tell briefly — in essence. Sixty-two years ago there was such an event. I failed — failed and fell. This was on the day — the Seventeenth of Tammuz. This is a stringent fast — of the four fasts — before the Ninth of Av — for the destruction — the destruction. And I — and I was accustomed to fasting all — all the fasts — Beh"b — Monday — Thursday — Monday — the eve of Rosh Chodesh — {I…} Yes. And also I made a fast every day. From midnight until after the prayer I did not taste even water — as my holy teacher Rebbe Yisroel (Kardonner) was accustomed to do. And on the day of the Seventeenth of Tammuz — which is a stringent fast — I fell and failed. It seemed to me that I was ill… that I was not feeling well and I was compelled — I was compelled to cancel the fast. In any case — however it would be — I — I am ashamed to tell everything — and I… In any case I failed. A descent — I descended a great descent — and I ate in the morning in such a state. This — and this weighed upon me. And I had great sorrow and I fell into such a sadness — that everyone who looked at me — sadness fell upon him. From the fact that I had not — had not fasted. In any case — and they were all opponents — and said: "This is the end of — of Breslov. In the end one goes mad." They thought that this — that I — who had always been in joy — suddenly the whole week — Sunday — Monday — Tuesday — Wednesday — in any case I had great sorrow — and also not… And I could not serve Hashem. I was — I was in darkness — in great sorrow — from such sadness — truly as if one goes out of one's mind. And they all rejoiced and said: "This is the end of the Breslov Chassidim." So I prayed to Hashem to have mercy on me and take me out of this — that I am causing — I am causing thereby a disgrace — a desecration of Hashem for Breslov. So — so there entered my mind a strong thought — as if someone stands and says words to me: "Enter your room — and there I had a bookcase. Open the bookcase and take out some book — any book at all. Do not intend anything — just put out your hand on a book and take it out and open it — and open it. Yes. Wherever you open — and there you will find a remedy for your soul!" Nu. So I had such a strong thought. So I said: "What — what — what — what do I have to lose? I will enter the room — and I will do this." Nu. I entered the room and opened the bookcase and took out a book and opened it. And there was — oy. Is there — is there something here? Ho — ho — there is something here — yes. This is the photograph — this is a photograph of the Petek. I opened the book — and the piece of paper was inside it. I did not pay attention to the paper. The paper will be my remedy? What will I have (not understood) paper? So I read the Halachah — where I had opened. Perhaps I would find there such words — that would help me. So I read — and this revived me. But when I finished — the illness returned as it had been. So it occurred to me — I thought — Heaven forfend — that there is no — that I have no — no possibility of recovery — no — no — no remedy at all. So before… I wanted to return the book to its place. Before I closed the book — I noticed that there is — that there is something here — that there are lines of writing. I began to read. Only I began to read — I saw that this — that this is a wondrous thing. "Me'od hayah kasheh li laredess elecha Talmi…" — immediately — and altogether I cannot tell even if I were able to speak — what I felt. What is in this — and what — what there is in this — it is impossible to reveal — impossible to tell — impossible to speak. But… Good. I began to read — and I read it all — to the very end I read it. As… Immediately when I finished reading — I entered into such a joy — not of this world — only of the World to Come. Such joy — I began to dance and to clap hands — and such nigunim of joy. And they from the yeshiva heard. They knew that I had been in sadness the whole week — and now I — they heard that I am in such joy — dancing. (Saba laughs.) Yes. So they — they said: "Now he is in complete disorder — he is already — there is (not understood) — he is mad." They entered the room and brought me out to the courtyard — and the whole yeshiva made a circle. And I was in the middle — and danced. They all rejoiced and all mocked me: "The madman is dancing." Altogether they stood for several hours — several hours. They said: "He — he is not — he is not tired. We — we (not understood) — we cannot stand." They all went — and I remained — and danced almost the whole night. Good. And from then — from that night — I received a name throughout the entire city of Teveria. I entered from the yeshiva into the city — so everyone said — they knew that the Breslov man — he has already gone mad. And I… And this — this is it — this is the Petek. Nu. I have nothing — no… I tell as it was. And also not everything — only… And this I know. Yes — yes. Much. I showed this in Yerushalayim to great Mekubalim in Yerushalayim — and they — they were astonished. They were so moved by this. In any case — I do not need to bring witnesses. This — it is a witness — it is a witness unto itself. Just to see the signature of Rabbainu with — with — with vowel points — "Na — Na Nach Nachma Nachman MayUman." This is the signature. This signature — the holy Rabbainu in his lifetime he signed his name on his letters as 'Nachman' — 'Nachman.' Here it is written "Na Nach Nachma Nachman" with vowel points — 'MayUman.' This is the world — the whole world knows of Rebbe Nachman of Breslov. Here it is written 'MayUman' — because — because he dwells in Uman. Yes. And also he revealed to me — this — that I did not fast on the Seventeenth of Tammuz. No one — no one knew. Yes. I would cause a desecration of Hashem — they would say the Breslov Chassidim do not fast on the Seventeenth of Tammuz. I — this was secret. Yes. And also it is written here: "Siman yud-zayin b'Tammuz yomru she'ayncha mis'aneh" — a sign that only I — only I and the Holy One Blessed Be He knew of this. This is the sign. And also here 'b'Tammuz' — with vowel points — sheva under the Bais — patach under the Sav — patach — 'b'Tammuz.' Only this… First of all — this signature — this — this is a new revelation in the world. Because the holy Rabbainu speaks in Likutay Moharan — that there is a song 'pashut — kaful — meshulass — meruba' — that will be revealed in the future — through Mashiach Tzidkaynu — that will be revealed in the future. And here he reveals that this song — 'pashut — kaful — meshulass — meruba' — he — he — he is this song. (Saba laughs.) Yes. ["Na Nach Nachma Nachman."] "Na Nach" — ho — ho. Yes — with vowel points. And also I cannot speak of all — all — all — all of this matter. What — what I see in this — "Me'od — me'od hayah kasheh li laredess elecha" — 'laredess elecha' — one sees — one sees a descent. All the lines are straight — straight — only this — this is also straight — but 'laredess elecha' — it goes downward. [It goes down.] Yes. Nu — good. "Me'od hayah kasheh li laredess elecha" — if with the holy Rabbainu Rebbe Nachman it was hard to descend to me — 'laredess elecha' — this is a descent — Heaven forfend — this is very awesome. Yes. Nu. And immediately he strengthens me: "Talmidi hayakar" — "Talmidi hayakar." 'Talmidi' alone — is that not enough? "Talmidi hayakar." And it could also have been — without "Talmidi hayakar" — "laredess elecha — lehagid lecha — ki nehenaytis me'od me'avodascha." Yes — not. "Talmidi hayakar" — he strengthens me. He — he — he — he brings me up from beneath — from the depths of the abyss — and raises me to the height of the loftiest heights: "Talmidi hayakar" — "lehagid — lehagid lecha ki — ki nehenaytis — ki nehenaytis me'od me'avodascha v'alecha amarti" — "nehenaytis me'od me'avodascha" — this is one thing. "V'alecha amarti" — this is another thing. These are two things — "v'alecha amarti." What did I say about you? The holy Rabbainu said in his lifetime a conversation: "The fire of mine will burn until the coming of Mashiach." Like this it is — like this it is written in the book Chayay Moharan. And here he reveals — this I said. What I said — "mein Feiyerel… the fire of mine will burn until the coming of Mashiach" — v'alecha amarti — I said this about you. That through you — the light will illuminate until the coming of Mashiach. 'V'alecha amarti' — this I said! "V'alecha amarti — mein Feyr… the fire of mine will burn until the coming of Mashiach — mein Feiyerel vet tlien biz Mashiach vet…" — do you also know Yiddish? "Mein Feiyerel vet tlien biz Mashiach vet kumen." Nu. "V'alecha amarti" — two things. "Nehenaytis me'od me'avodascha" — "v'alecha amarti" — you can strengthen yourself: "Chazak v'amatz b'avodascha" — this is the seal — this is already sealed. He reveals to me two things — "nehenaytis me'od me'avodascha" — and "v'alecha amarti" — and he seals upon this — it is finished. This — this is the letter. He announces to me two things: "Nehenaytis me'od me'avodascha" — "v'alecha amarti — mein Feiyerel vet tlien biz Mashiach vet kumen" — "Chazak v'amatz b'avodascha" — I had completely lost all confidence — and he: 'Chazak…' — if so: "Nehenaytis me'od me'avodascha v'alecha amarti" — you can strengthen yourself: "Chazak v'amatz b'avodascha" — and also the lines — one — two — three — four — five — six — "b'avodascha" — this is also a line — even — and even one — this — this is a line — six. And the holy Rabbainu — the signature — it is on the line — on the [seventh] seventh. This is Shabbos — this is the tzaddik — the aspect of Shabbos. And there is also the secret — afterwards: "U'v'zeh — u'v'zeh agaleh l'cha sod v'hu" — a secret. "Melo v'gadish miku l'ku — Pey-Tzadi-Pey-Tzadi-Yud-Hay" — this — this is the name of the angel of the blowing — of the blowing — of the blowing of the shofar. This — only this word — it is in regular writing — which he wrote. These are Rashi letters — and these are regular letters — as one writes. And one recognizes that this is his handwriting. [Handwriting?] His handwriting — yes. For this reason — Rashi — not — not — not {possible}. But this — this is his handwriting. Yes. Nu. I — I do not understand this — the secret. "U'v'chazuk avodah tvavinayhu" — if I hold fast to the service of Hashem — "tvavinayhu" — and now he tells — he — he tells me the sign — that only I knew of this. All — all… This was secret — each one did not — did not know of this. Yes. He reveals to me the sign of the Seventeenth of Tammuz — this was what it was. Oy — oy — oy — oy — oy. Master of the Universe — Master of the Universe. In any case — the main thing — the words — that we must reveal and publicize and give our souls for this matter — that all the redemption depends on Rabbainu Rebbe Nachman of Breslov — to study his books. He is this… Every letter — every Torah teaching — every — every word of his — is such a light — that he speaks to you — speaks what you need — all the matters that pass over you — that have passed over you — that pass over you — and so for this one — and so for that one — and so for every single one. And so I — and every single one. And every word that Rabbainu revealed — it is the generality of every single person of Yisroel — what passes over him and what has passed over him. His illnesses and his remedies — not only the illnesses — he — he — he — he corrects — purifies and heals all the sick — all — all the worst in the world — those who have no possibility of recovery — none — no tzaddik can help them. But Rabbainu Rebbe Nachman said: "Va'ani rofeh osah" — "and I heal her." This is the end of the story of the 'Seven Beggars.' Do you know the story — the Ma'asiyos? Do you have the Ma'asiyos of Rabbainu? [Yes.] Yes. There is at the end of the story of the 'Seven Beggars' — at the end of this story — the sixth beggar says. The sixth beggar told a story and said: "The princess received all the arrows — with all — with all the poisoned ones. Yes. And she fell into a swoon. Nu. And I…" Like this said the beggar: "Va'ani rofeh osah" — "and I heal her." This applies to all — to all the people of Yisroel — to each and every one. "Va'ani rofeh osah — and I heal her." She {fell} — already fell — received all the arrows and she fell. "Va'ani rofeh osah" — only "va'ani rofeh osah." There is no — none who can heal this. This… But this is the holy Rabbainu — the beggar said: "Va'ani rofeh osah." And the holy Rabbainu revealed about — about himself — that he is this beggar — that he heals her. "Va'ani rofeh osah" (Saba draws out the word "and I") — he said about himself. [I — I.] Yes. 'Ani.' Yes. (Saba laughs.) Yes. We are rectified. We already have all the rectifications and remedies and salvations that each and every one needs — through Rabbainu Rebbe Nachman. Only Rabbainu Rebbe Nachman — he is the root of Torah — he is the root of emunah — he is the root of every single person of Yisroel. However he is found — in whatever place he has descended — in whatever place he is — he — he takes him out — he heals him. Yes. What — what is impossible to heal — such a sick one — who has none — none — none — no remedy for such an illness — but Rabbainu Rebbe Nachman — he revealed — that he indeed can heal and rectify everything. Yes — yes. There are wondrous hidden matters in this. But — but it has not been revealed in the world. Because I remember — seventy years ago — when I drew close to Rabbainu — there was a prohibition to study Breslov books. There was a prohibition to study Breslov books. I found a Breslov book and did not know it was Breslov — and I was reading it. So they saw: "What are you doing? You are studying this book?" Yes. So this was the first time I heard that there is Breslov in the world. I had not heard… Not — I did not know there was Breslov in the world. So I knew that there was Breslov: "Do you not know this is a Breslov book? It is forbidden to read it." Blessed be Hashem — today one can read in every synagogue. Yes. Every one who wants to learn — this — this is signs — signs of the redemption — signs that we stand — that according to our prayers — according to our deeds — we already have none — none — none — no rectification for such sick people. But Rabbainu Rebbe Nachman has already been in the world — and he — he can rectify all the illnesses and all — there is no place — that he cannot rectify and heal. Yes. So — so when we hear this — then we must give our souls to set within our hearts his holy words — his Torah teachings and prayers and halachos. There is the book Likutay… the book Likutay Halachos. Do you know of this? [Halachos and there are prayers — advice.] And also Likutay Aytzos. Yes — yes — yes. All of us — we must. [Rebbe Nassan wrote it.] Yes — yes. We must be expert in the book Likutay Moharan. The holy Rabbainu said — that one must be expert in this — that one can say it by heart forwards and backwards. Even backwards. Yes. Such expertise is needed for this — because this is all our life-force. Every word is all our life-force — every word of his — even one word. And the holy Rabbainu revealed that he is hinted at in a verse. There is a verse in Tanach: "N'chal N'ovea M'kor Ch'ochmah" — and its initial letters spell "Nachman." And he is hinted at in this verse: "Nachal Novea Makor Chochmah." He flows and flows — and flows — a source of wisdom — such wisdom as has not yet been in the world. We have Torah and all the books of all the tzaddikim — and this is the root of all Torah. This surpasses everything. Through this we can draw close to Torah — to know — to see the light of Torah. In Torah there is — there is much power — there is an elixir of life — and its opposite. Yes. And through the holy Rabbainu — one merits to see the light of Torah as one should. Because there are — there are very hidden matters in this. But now we see that the whole world — even non-Jews — the wise men of the non-Jews — {in the university} — at the university — they wonder greatly at Rabbainu Rebbe Nachman of Breslov. Even non-Jews. I spoke with several people who know of this — from London and from England and… They always speak of Rebbe Nachman of Breslov — of the Ma'asiyos — of — of his words. Yes. And one sees that the whole world are drawing themselves to Rabbainu Rebbe Nachman of Breslov. One sees… There were many tzaddikim in the world — the holy Ba'al Shem and his disciples and… There were many disciples — they do not speak of any one of them… Only there remains for us as if there is a singular one in the world — Rebbe Nachman of Breslov. And so we — the main thing is to extract from this — that we must give our souls to be expert in his holy words. Then we will merit to… But with emunah — one can learn and not know — be as if there was nothing at all — if — if — if for the sake of pride — "I am Breslov" — for the sake of — for the sake of — for the sake of — only for the sake of pride that I am expert in Likutay Moharan — this… The main thing is to learn so that we know how to fight — the strategies of war — how to fight and conquer — to subdue the evil. Yes. Oy — nu. May the Holy One Blessed Be He have mercy upon us. And we need great compassion. And this — we — I and my friends — have seen many signs from this holy Name: "Na Nach Nachma Nachman MayUman." In America there was such an event. A secular man — he heard from various people — they were in the same place together. And he heard… We — in recent times — we made amulets from this holy Name "Na Nach Nachma Nachman" — and this is effective for a person for all the salvations he needs. This — this is a protection — like an amulet. Yes. He heard this and he heard — in a time of trouble — in a moment when a person suffers some trouble — to say with the mouth — in addition to the amulet — to say with the mouth: "Na Nach Nachma Nachman MayUman." Nu — so. He — he heard this — and he is secular — he knows nothing — does not know Torah — {what is} faith — he went with another one in a taxi. And it was on that day such cold in America — and such snow. And his car broke down completely — without any… He needs a garage — he needs treatment. Yes. Medical treatment — it is impossible to… And the cold was so fierce — one could literally die — perish — from the cold. And he — he…

Segment 2

…A story — of a baby girl one and a half years old. A boiling kettle of water fell upon her — from the fire — and fell upon her — upon her face. Nu. They took her to Beilinson Hospital. And the doctors saw her — and they had great sorrow. How is she… She is in great danger. And even if she comes out of the danger — what kind of face — not — not k… And her parents saw the trouble — but they did not — did not know anything. They had some — some relative who had the amulet. She went to visit her. And she placed her amulet upon — upon the sick one. Yes. Upon the baby girl. And two days passed — and she was healed — and the burn was gone — as if she had just now been born anew. She has a father and a mother — they all know — the family — and the doctors also. The doctor who treated her — so he — he went mad. He said to them: "What did you do? What — what — what happened?" They told him — this is the amulet. She — she gave him the amulet. He took the amulet — and until today he does not want to return the amulet. [He wants to sing a little.] Ah? [He wants to sing.] Who — who is this? [This is Yisroel Dagan.] Ah…