Tape 15G, Side Aleph

So he said to him: "Go — search for an apartment and tell me how much it costs." The landlord was very happy and said to him: "The apartment — I want to be in Teveria for two months." {An expert.} He went and… Good. (not understood) So he gave him all the money. Yes. And there was food for the donkeys. Afterwards came the matzos — the matzos — I already told you about this. The one who makes flour had — he had flour for sale. And Rebbe Yisroel came and said to him: "He — I will give you — I have flour and I give it to you." He said: "Give me money afterwards — after Pesach. I am afraid of you people." Yes — there was Pesach in Teveria. Wine? Wine — I do not remember any more. But the Holy One Blessed Be He arranged everything for him. He had it in great abundance. Yes. And my father — he (not understood) me — I have no time — I have no time — they do not go to the yeshiva and… Yes — one had to buy potatoes — potatoes. And one had to go — he wanted to go to the place where they receive the potatoes. (not understood) For the honor of Pesach — a song — everything he wanted — he had everything — for Yisroel Ber. [Mesiras nefesh — ah.] Perhaps I will succeed in drawing close to the holy Rabbainu. And I did not give you — I have no hat. (not understood) The whole city circled — through the whole city. [Almost a donkey!] What is this — I am not — (not understood) — he took everything without money — flour and matzos to bake. He paid everything after Pesach. And I saw wonders. He took some — some jugs for Pesach — and paid a great deal of money — for the water — so that there would be — from before Pesach until after Pesach — the whole week. [How was Pesach with him?] I had great joy — that I merited — that I merited to see such things — such wonders. I saw his prayer and his hisbodedus — and I saw that he is entirely truth and emunah. And there is — there is nothing like this in the world. Yes — I saw that this — (not understood) — the Holy One Blessed Be He had mercy upon me and gave me such a thing — Rebbe Yisroel. And I saw that he dances. I did not know — I came — and as if he was doing — I came to his house and I saw that he dances. "Oy — Master of the Universe — You gave me — (not understood)" His father was joyful. They came to him and said: "He has become Breslov." So he said: "What — he has become Breslov? If I tell him not to be Breslov — then he will not be." I came — and he said to me: "This and this came and told me that you have become a Breslov Chassid. I do not want this in any way." And he was blind and poor — very poor — and also blind — my father. And I said to him: "Father — I want only Breslov." Here — this {became} — the mother — the mother heard such words from him — that he wants only Breslov — she began to weep. The father began to weep greatly — from the great grief — that he had become a Breslov Chassid all of a sudden. What is this? Nu — there was — there was joy. I cannot tell everything — but he wept. [Good — blessed be Hashem — may Hashem help that we merit to walk in the ways.] He came and said to him: "He is already renting by him for two — two months in Teveria." He opened the cashbox and gave him — (not understood) — he gave him money and money and… Yes. And that he should pay for the apartment — and pay for the donkey — on account of the donkey. And blessed be Hashem — he took all the utensils for the apartment — for the apartment. Nu — blessed be Hashem. But — but there was not… Yes — they will send. [The Slonim Chassidim.] The Slonim Chassidim — he has become Breslov — they went again to his father: "Your son has become Breslov." And I came. He said to me: "Father — Rav Motl said to me — and this one said to me — that you have become a Breslov Chassid. I do not want this in any way. I want you to be like — like the whole world." I said to him: "This does not — not appear to me. I want only Breslov." (not understood) And the mother heard how he weeps — and he pleads with me: "Have mercy on me and on yourself. Do not — do not be Breslov. You need to make a match — who will take you? Who will take you?" I do not know what I was speaking — I was already a bridegroom in Tzfas. So he said to me: "The in-law will hear that you have become Breslov — so he will take the wife away — and what will be if he does not give me the wife — he will not give me his daughter." And so it was. My father-in-law was a great opponent against Breslov. He said to me: "I do not want Breslov in any way." I had a handshake agreement with Rebbe Yisroel — that we must meet at least once a day and once at night — whether to learn — whether not — but to meet — we must meet. Nu — nu — he locked the door and did not let me go out. He did not know of this. But he wanted that I should not go to Rebbe Yisroel. And I said to my wife: "What is this? He took me as a bridegroom — not — not for Chassidus. What is this? I want Breslov." So she said to her father: "He wants only Breslov." He struck her with murderous blows: "Write a divorce! What is Breslov?!" (not understood) And I was a great stubborn one — and not — and I wanted only Breslov. Not {I paid attention to money} — and I could not bring money. And the father — he is blind and poor. And I — (not understood) — the father and the mother heard that I want only Breslov. Nu — nu — they had — they had — they had great grief. As if I were lying dead. Nu — there is more — and more — and more — until today — there is — there is and there is.

I needed a prayer book to pray. I wanted a beautiful prayer book — a prayer book that would have all the prayers and all… and Psalms — and Birchas HaMazon. But such a prayer book in Teveria — there is none — only in Yerushalayim. And my mother had to go to Yerushalayim. I took money — money that I had. There was one in Teveria — Yaakov Kasir — an old man. Yes — he had money. And he was a great miser — he did not give a donation — he did not give tzedakah. And I prayed such prayers — he said to me — he gave me every day a large coin. I took the coins and gave to mother. I had several coins. I gave to mother — that she should buy — that she should bring me from Yerushalayim a Kol-Bo siddur — such a siddur that has…

(not understood) From this siddur — perhaps it has prayers from Breslov? Nu — nu — who can tell what I had? Now I laugh and you laugh. If you had been there? Nu — nu — you would be weeping with me together. What is this? He — he… There was no Breslov Chassid in Tzfas. Nu. And I all of a sudden became a Breslov Chassid. And Rebbe Yisroel — everyone knew that he is a Breslov Chassid. And I learned with Rebbe Yisroel — and I prayed with Rebbe Yisroel. And I remember there was a joyful light. (not understood)

I remember until now — like now — like now — such shouting! What is this? The donkeys — he — he works all day and needs to eat. What is this? I can give — (not understood) — gives him money to pay the donkey owner — {that they should eat} — and they need to work today as well. He argued: "If you have no money — why did you travel?" He was several years in Teveria — and all were opponents. All were Slonim Chassidim — Karlin and Slonim — and all were opponents. And I was alone. Yes. And I walked with Rebbe Yisroel — always together — to hear from him some — (not understood) — some word. Yes. And they saw and said: "Yisroel Ber walks with Rebbe Yisroel — and he learns Breslov books. What — have you not heard? (not understood) He does not listen to his father and to us — and now — (not understood) — he wants only Breslov." And my father — I grieved him so greatly. Yes — there was so much grief. I said: "I want only Breslov." Yisroel Meir — Yisroel Meir — he knows — he knows a great deal. I told him a little. Yisroel Meir [Gabbai.] Gabbai. (not understood) Such great shouting as this — of the donkey owner — I have not seen. The donkey needs to eat — and I need to eat — what is this? If you have no money — don't travel. [Saba — we are praying Minchah.]

…Holy tzaddikim — truth — and emunah — and… Oy — how good — how pleasant — how good. If there are {upon him} humiliations and shedding of blood — for the sake of truth — for the sake of the Holy One Blessed Be He — for the sake of the Torah — how good this is {for a person.} The holy Rabbainu speaks of this in Likutay Moharan in the Torah "Kra es Yehoshua." Rabbainu says: "The essence of teshuvah is humiliations and shedding of blood." "Yesh lahafoch dam l'dom" — one can transform 'blood' into 'silence.' (not understood) To the opponents — only silence — silence — silence — silence. 'Blood' and 'shedding of blood'? Silence! Oy — good — good! If only I had known how precious humiliations and shedding of blood are — I would have prayed to the Holy One Blessed Be He to give me more — and more — and more. And I saw how the Holy One Blessed Be He pays back. He — {Moshe Klirs} was a king with pride. Yes. And he had — his son — Elazar Klirs made a bank — he made the Klirs bank. A bank — yes — this was the biggest bank in Teveria. A bank. And I had no bread to give to small children — to children — not bread — not shoes — not bread — not a garment — nothing. I do not know how I am alive — and how my children are alive.

…To reach Uman — all the world — England — America — to Uman? No! The people ask for a visa — where to? To Uman? No! No! Now the holy Rabbainu — he — he told them to enter the grave — into the grave. Yes. And he conquered the whole world. He is Uman — he — he is in Uman — and all who want can come — can come to Rabbainu. Such a wonder — that every person can come to Rabbainu. And he rectifies us — he helps us — he revives us — he — he gives us wisdom — and intelligence — and knowledge — and such light as has never been before. And now is the time that is close to the coming of Mashiach. Yes. The holy Rabbainu writes to me — and this — in his letter: "V'alecha amarti mein Feiyerel vet tlien biz Mashiach vet kumen." "Talmidi HaYakar." (not understood) "Talmidi HaYakar" — "V'alecha amarti mein Feiyerel vet tlien biz Mashiach vet kumen." And I was very broken then. So he wanted — he — to revive me. So he — he — so he comes and begins: "Me'od hayah kasheh li laredess lehagid lecha ki nehenaytis me'od" — (Saba draws out the word "very") — "me'avodascha. V'alecha amarti mein Feiyerel vet tlien biz Mashiach vet kumen." (not understood) "V'alecha amarti" — "V'alecha amarti" — nu. So the words of Rabbainu can testify — it is the generality of all the Torah — the generality of all the souls of Yisroel — all {the world.} Yes. He writes to you — to him — and to me — he enjoyed greatly. He writes: "Me'od hayah kasheh li laredess elecha" — and "V'alecha" — not — not only to you — to you — and to you — and to you — and to all of Yisroel. He has already conquered — he already knows how to help us — and how to take us out of the darkness — and how he illuminates in us the light of Hashem — and the Torah — and the emunah. What? Never yet has such a thing been in the world. Now — blessed be Hashem — it is possible for the world to draw close — that the holy Rabbainu — all the world can come to him in Uman — in two and a half hours — from Lod to Uman — two and a half hours. Nu — all the world knows — all the world knows that it was closed — and no human being could come to Uman. Yes — because they were enemies of people. The enemies did not — not — not allow reaching Uman. And we reached — we came to Uman — yes — in secrecy and in great suffering — we suffered very greatly. But now? Rabbainu told them to go — to go to Russia. I do not know — they do not know where they are. Not one has remained of all the Communists — without a bullet — without a war. Yes. And the holy Rabbainu became famous and great in the whole world — and everyone can come — even without a visa. I was by — by the President and by {Shamir.} Yes. (not understood) So they took him to the city — and it became known that he {the child} of — (not understood) — he — his mother took him. (not understood) So {Rebbe Yisroel} said to me that he was the name — his — of the child — he saw written on — on the tombstone. (not understood) {There was a child Yisroel — dead.} He is already — he is alive — he is alive. (not understood) Yes. But on the tombstone it is written {Yisroel} — dead. {Oy — Rabbainu — Rabbainu — Rabbainu. (not understood)} Such a matter — such wonders — such — as there are none in the world. That if — (not understood) — every person — {then} — all his words — he — he told the Ma'asiyos. (not understood) — {what there is} in the world such a wonder — that he can tell such stories. (not understood) — that this is such a wondrous matter. Oy — there will be more — there will be more. The whole world will know and recognize what Rebbe Nachman is. (not understood)