{
  "bookId": "yemei-moharnat",
  "part": "1",
  "torah": "185",
  "title": "עב",
  "hebrewTitle": "עב",
  "sourceUrl": "/reader/yemei-moharnat/1/185",
  "plainUrl": "/reader-plain/yemei-moharnat/1/185/",
  "segments": [
    {
      "index": 1,
      "he": "בְּיוֹם רִאשׁוֹן אַחַר פֶּסַח הָיִיתִי לָהוּט מְאד לִשְׂכּר סְפִינָה, אֲבָל הָיָה מִן הַנִּמְנָע כִּי הָיָה אָז הַחֲגָאוֹת שֶׁלָּהֶם שְׁלשָׁה יָמִים רְצוּפִים:",
      "en": "And behold — throughout all these days — my mind was confused and bewildered every time about the matter of the journey to Eretz Yisroel. And I could not settle my mind at all — because of the very obstacles of the mind. For there were many confusions in my thoughts — as if it were impossible for me to come there — Heaven forbid. Both because of the obstacles of money and the dangers of the road — because of the heavy warfare of the Greeks (the Greeks) that was being heard then — and because of other obstacles in my mind which weakened my resolve every time — that it was impossible for me to come there — Heaven forbid. And already — in the days of Elul of the year 5580 — a year and a half ago — I had already been in Odessa. And I had already given an advance money in Odessa for a passport. And I had retreated because of such obstacles. But our way was never to abandon the will — as we received from his holy mouth and from his holy books. Therefore — every time the obstacles intensified more against me — and in particular the obstacles of the mind which were the main obstacle — every time they intensified more — I strengthened my will more and more."
    }
  ]
}