I received your letter just now. He intended not to reply — because of the honor of *Chol HaMoed* — but from the words of his brother-in-law — may his light shine — he understood the immensity of his yearning for his letter — and also because all their words are words of Torah pertaining to action and the salvation of the soul — it is certainly a mitzvah to write also on Chol HaMoed.
And the general principle — know that G-d forbid G-d forbid for you to think about this matter at all — neither in retrospect nor going forward — only to forget the matter from your mind. For he heard from his holy mouth — of blessed memory — that this matter is like... [כְּמוֹ... — this is left deliberately incomplete in the original — protecting the full content from wider publication. Reb Nussun uses the formula *dai l'meivin* — "it is sufficient for one who understands"] — and *dai l'meivin.* For the thought and the dark melancholy about this matter harms greatly and is of no benefit at all. And is it not so — however it is — you certainly need to speak greatly between yourself and your Creator — and express your speech before Him Yisborach every day. And certainly within your words you will feel the pains of your soul. For this matter is not drawn from itself — only from what passed over you before. But over all of this — we have One to lean on — upon the power of the holy elder — and through his great power we are still able to express our speech before Him Yisborach. And He Yisborach is full of mercy — and only He knows our inclination.
And he has already spoken greatly about this — and one must return every day to what he heard from his holy mouth — of blessed memory — (Chayyei Moharan 67): *"Hashem Yisborach is very great — and things like these are done in the world — and one does not know at all — and even what is done with you"* and so forth. And certainly you have already heard this from him — and still you need great mercy — that you merit to feel the awesomeness of the greatness of these things. And the general principle — one does not know at all — and just as one can ruin — so one can repair. And blessed be Hashem Who has wondrous-made His *chesed* with us — that we do not dispute the one who repairs. More than this it is impossible to extend for several reasons — and may Hashem Yisborach gladden you and us with the joy of this holy festival coming upon us for good — *nagila v'nismecha bishu'aso.*
[Double and triple postscript warning:] The matter is doubled with a double and triple warning — that you have no dark melancholy from this — and remove the matter completely from your mind — and not to be afraid at all — only to strengthen oneself in joy. And return to begin anew to go with the holy Torah *"azamra lelokai b'odi"* — and let it be completely new in your eyes. And through this you will be able to rejoice and to strengthen yourself — hope to Hashem and He will save you in all your matters — and *"ilmalei lo asinu l'olma ela l'mishma haTorah 'azamra' dayeinu"* — "were it not that we came into the world only to hear the Torah 'Azamra' — dayeinu." [The Torah called "Azamra" is Likutay Moharan II:112 — one of the most beloved and central teachings of the Rebbe — about finding even one good point within oneself and through it singing praise to Hashem — thereby drawing oneself back to life and joy from even the deepest depths]
And do not forget — praised be G-d — you were on this Rosh Hashanah — among such a holy and awesome congregation. And he already warned us — of blessed memory — (Chayyei Moharan 403) — that one who is with him on Rosh Hashanah must rejoice all year. And he said explicitly: *"Edlu ma'adanim u'sh'su mamtakim — ki cheivas Hashem hi ma'uzechem"* — "eat delicacies and drink sweets — for the joy of Hashem is your strength" [Nechemiah 8:10] — for this verse was said about *Rosh Hashanah.*
The words of your father.
Nussun of Breslov.
And abundant peace to all our anshei sh'lomaynu with great love — and love of eternity forever.
Overview: Night before Tuesday — 2nd day of Chol HaMoed Sukkos — Nemirov. To Yitzchok. Received his letter just now. Intended not to reply because of the honor of Chol HaMoed — but from the words of his brother-in-law he understood the immensity of his yearning — and also because all their words are words of Torah pertaining to action and the salvation of the soul — it is certainly a mitzvah to write also on Chol HaMoed. And the general principle — G-d forbid G-d forbid for you to think about this matter at all — neither in retrospect nor going forward — only to forget the matter from your mind. For the thought and the dark melancholy about this matter harms greatly and is of no benefit at all. However it is — you certainly need to speak greatly between yourself and your Creator. Within your words you will feel the pains of your soul. For this matter is not drawn from itself — only from what passed over you before. But over all of this — we have One to lean on — upon the power of the holy elder — and through his great power we are still able to express our speech before Him Yisborach. And He Yisborach is full of mercy — and only He knows our inclination. One must return every day to what he heard from his holy mouth (Chayyei Moharan 67): "Hashem Yisborach is very great — and things like these are done in the world — and one does not know at all — and even what is done with you." The general principle — one does not know at all — and just as one can ruin so one can repair. Blessed be Hashem that we do not dispute the one who repairs. Nagila v'nismecha bishu'aso. Then double and triple warning: no dark melancholy from this — remove the matter completely from your mind — not to be afraid at all — only strengthen in joy. Return to begin anew with the holy Torah "azamra lelokai b'odi." And through this rejoice and strengthen yourself — "ilmalei lo asinu l'olma ela l'mishma haTorah 'azamra' dayeinu." And do not forget — praised be G-d you were on this Rosh Hashanah among such a holy and awesome congregation. He already warned (Chayyei Moharan 403) — one who is with him on Rosh Hashanah must rejoice all year. And he said explicitly: "Edlu ma'adanim u'sh'su mamtakim — ki cheivas Hashem hi ma'uzechem" — for this verse was said about Rosh Hashanah.