Ullim LeTroofah
עלים לתרופה
Leaves for Healing
LETTER FOUR HUNDRED AND FIFTY-ONE
Blessed be Hashem  ·  Tuesday, Parshas Pekudei — Breslov  ·  Year 5604 (1844)
ToPeace — to my beloved son — may he live.

He received his letter yesterday morning — for he had been awaiting his letter greatly. But within it was enclosed a letter from Rabbi Avraham Ber — may he live — with a great and bitter cry —

for his daughter Chana Chaya — of blessed memory — passed away — from the wound in her mouth — and they had used the doctor while he was there — as Rabbi Nachman knows. And the immensity of his cry — unto his very soul. For in the previous year two of his children passed away from him — a son and a daughter. May Hashem Yisborach have mercy upon him and say to his troubles — enough. And may he merit to raise from now his daughters — may they live — and may He save him in all the salvations.

And before his letter arrived yesterday — he received in the morning a small letter from his dear friend Rabbi Nachman from Heisin — that his wife and his daughter are not in good health — and his small daughter is more seriously ill. May Hashem Yisborach strengthen them quickly.

And what is in his home now — he has already heard — that his daughter-in-law is lying on a bed of sickness — with great and immense pain in her mouth — and it is not known what it is — and the immensity of her pain it is impossible to explain. And this is more than ten days that she is lying thus — and she is eating nothing at all — only her life comes from fresh water. And also his wife — may she live — has weakened — and today she is walking in the house — praised be G-d — but she has no strength at all. And you can understand the greatness of the commotion — what is in the heart of each one — that he does not rouse the world with doctors — the messengers of the harmful ones — G-d protect us. And Rabbi Ephraim — the grandson of our Rebbe — of blessed memory — still has a quartan fever in his home — and cries out to him at every time over his poverty and his distress and that he wanders so much — and that he has no shirt to wear.

And all this is happening just now at a time when he is very preoccupied — to prepare the needs of the wedding of his son — may he live — at such a time close to Pesach. And many things are lacking to him — and he does not know what to do. And also his grandson — the son of his daughter Chana Tzirel — may she live — was weak and in grave danger — G-d protect us. And his daughter — she is your sister — wept over him every day. And now — praised be G-d — he has an improvement for good — with Hashem's help. May Hashem Yisborach in His mercies complete his healing quickly.

And also his letters sent to him every time — he hears and understands them — and he knew his pains. And beyond all the cries and sighs that he hears at every time from our anshei sh'lomaynu — about livelihood and children and so forth — and the peace of the home — and the sufferings of the dispute — which this one came near and this one uprooted pages from the aleph-beis book.

And in the midst of all this — one must pray three prayers a day — and learn — and remember the World to Come. And in truth this is my consolation in my poverty — lulei sorascha sha'ashu'ai az avadti v'anyi. And how great are the deeds of Hashem — that He informed us beforehand what He informed us — through the flowing stream — the source of wisdom — whose words are very deep — and give life to all in all that passes over us. May Hashem Yisborach have mercy from now. And in my poverty I find great expanses — even in the midst of all these troubles. And I give thanks for the past — and request for the future — that Hashem Yisborach save me in His mercies from every trouble and distress — and I await salvations at every time — for from every trouble He has saved me. Baruch Elokeinu she'b'ra'anu lichvodo v'hivdilanu min ha'to'im — who did not despise His holy books — on the contrary — to hope that they spread to illuminate the face of the world.

And behold — he could not restrain himself from informing him some of his pain. For he has still not informed him even half of the pain of his heart. But know my beloved son — that also the joy in his heart — to overcome in His chesed — to convert the sorrow and sighing to joy — and so forth — he has not informed him — for the good measure is greater. And to Hashem the hope — that He will save us quickly for His name's sake — and convert all to good. Just now — he and all of us need great mercy and great salvations. And our eyes are lifted to Him — until He shows us grace quickly — for His name's sake — and for the sake of our Master our Teacher and our Rebbe — the holy and awesome — elder of elders — for Hashem will not forsake us. More than this there is no leisure to extend — for he has still not put on the tefillin of Rabbeinu Tam. And behold — this coming Shabbas it is impossible to call the groom — may he live — to the Torah — as he already heard from the mouth of Rabbi Dovid — that there is a delay also from his in-law. And now this is for good. And he hopes to Hashem that on the following Shabbas — which is Parshas Vayikra — he will be called to the Torah — in His chesed and salvation Yisborach. And regarding the wedding — he still does not know where it will be — whether here or in Lipovitz — and the counsel of Hashem will stand. And all that he wrote to him — all of it — is so that you understand how greatly we need at every time to overcome — to snatch good from within the anger and pains of this world — and to rejoice in this and to convert the sorrow and sighing to joy — that we merit in this world that is full of anger and pains. For such things pass over all the world — as is explained in all the books — from the bitterness of this world — as our Rebbe — of blessed memory — said: it appears that here is the purgatory. And even so — we snatch every day to say the Sh'ma to unify His name Yisborach twice every day — and tallis and tefillin — and so forth. This is our portion from all our toil. And we must overcome with all strength to rejoice — in all that passes over the person every day — to fulfil: v'nismach b'divrei sorascha u'v'mitzvosecha l'olam va'ed ki heim chayyeinu. And all this is according to the very deep counsel of the flowing stream — the source of wisdom — whose great power and very deep and wholesome words gladden even us — through His awesome wonders — until we merit quickly to come out from all the troubles — nagila v'nismecha bishu'aso.

The words of your father.

Nussun of Breslov.

And peace to all his household — may they live — and to all our anshei sh'lomaynu — may they live. And in particular to Rabbi Nachman — the grandson of our Master our Teacher and our Rebbe — of blessed memory.

Overview: Tuesday, Parshas Pekudei — Breslov — 5604. To Yitzchok. He received his letter yesterday morning. But within it was enclosed a letter from Rabbi Avraham Ber with a great bitter cry — for his daughter Chana Chaya — of blessed memory — passed away from the wound in her mouth. And the immensity of his cry — for in the previous year two of his children passed away. May Hashem have mercy and say to his troubles — enough. And before the letter arrived — he received a small letter from Rabbi Nachman of Heisin — that his wife and daughter are not well — his small daughter more seriously ill. And what is in his home now — his daughter-in-law is lying on a bed of sickness for more than ten days — great and immense pain in her mouth — she eats nothing at all — only fresh water. His wife has weakened. He does not rouse the world with doctors. And Rabbi Ephraim grandson of the Rebbe still has a quartan fever in his home — cries over his poverty. All this at a time when he is very preoccupied — to prepare the needs of the wedding close to Pesach. And also his grandson was weak and in grave danger. He cannot restrain himself from informing him some of his pain. But know my beloved son — that also the joy in his heart to overcome — to convert the sorrow and sighing to joy — he has not informed him — for the good measure is greater. He needs great mercy and great salvations. Our eyes are lifted to Him. Lulei sorascha sha'ashu'ai az avadti v'anyi. Baruch Elokeinu she'b'ra'anu lichvodo. And all that he wrote — so that you understand how greatly we need at every time to overcome — to snatch good from within the anger and pains of this world. For such things pass over all the world. Even so — we snatch every day to say the Sh'ma and to don tallis and tefillin. This is our portion from all our toil. Nagila v'nismecha bishu'aso.

Key Themes

A Letter From Rabbi Avraham Ber With a Great Bitter Cry — His Daughter Chana Chaya Passed Away — In the Previous Year Two of His Children Passed Away — May Hashem Say to His Troubles Enough — His Daughter-in-Law Is Lying Ill for More Than Ten Days — Eating Nothing — Only Fresh Water — His Wife Has Weakened — He Does Not Rouse the World With Doctors — Rabbi Ephraim Grandson of the Rebbe Is Ill in His HomeWithin his letter was enclosed a letter from Rabbi Avraham Ber with a great bitter cry — his daughter Chana Chaya passed away from the wound in her mouth. In the previous year two of his children passed away. His daughter-in-law is lying ill for more than ten days — great pain in her mouth — eating nothing — only fresh water. His wife has weakened. He does not rouse the world with doctors. Rabbi Ephraim grandson of the Rebbe still has a quartan fever and cries over his poverty. All this while he is very preoccupied with preparing the wedding close to Pesach.
He Cannot Restrain Himself From Telling Some of His Pain — But Also the Joy in His Heart to Convert Sorrow to Joy Is Greater — Lulei Sorascha Sha'ashu'ai Az Avadti V'Anyi — Baruch Elokeinu She'B'Ra'anu Lichvodo — We Need Much Mercy and Great Salvations — We Snatch Every Day to Say the Sh'ma and Tallis and Tefillin — This Is Our Portion From All Our Toil — Nagila V'Nismecha Bishu'asoHe could not restrain himself from informing him some of his pain — but he has not informed him even half. But also the joy in his heart to convert sorrow to joy — he has not informed him — for the good measure is greater. Lulei sorascha sha'ashu'ai az avadti v'anyi. Baruch Elokeinu she'b'ra'anu lichvodo. Just now he and all of them need great mercy. We snatch every day to say the Sh'ma and don tallis and tefillin — this is our portion from all our toil. Nagila v'nismecha bishu'aso.