Siman 117
סימן 117
Source: https://ajew.org/reader/chayey-moharan/1/117

Segment 1
HE:
אַחַר-כָּךְ נִתְגַּלְגֵּל הַדָּבָר וְהָיָה מֻכְרָח לְהִסְתַּלֵּק מִשֻּׁלְחַן חוֹתְנוֹ כִּי חֲמוֹתוֹ נִפְטְרָה וְלָקַח חוֹתְנוֹ אִשָּׁה אַחֶרֶת מִקְּהִלַּת קדֶשׁ מָאהְלִיב וְרַבֵּנוּ זִכְרוֹנוֹ לִבְרָכָה בְּעַצְמוֹ הִשִּׂיאָהּ לוֹ כִּי הוּא זִכְרוֹנוֹ לִבְרָכָה נָסַע

EN:
(14.) In the year 5565 [1804/5] he arranged the wedding of his daughter Miriam of blessed memory in the holy congregation of Volchisk. And on the Sabbath before the wedding — called the Forshpil — which was on Parashat Noach, Rosh Chodesh Cheshvan, he danced the entire day. And such dancing was never seen from him at any other time — for then he danced almost the entire day. And what was there on that Sabbath — it is impossible to explain or recount. And he prayed with us girded with only a kerchief [fatchayle], and afterwards at the Third Meal he sat with us and said to remember this Third Meal.

And he told then that on that Rosh Hashana someone had given him expenses of one thousand red coins [adumim] — after all the need [had been met] — and he was in the place where he was, and it was a place where very lofty Torah was being said, and he greatly loves Torah. And there was a guard standing at the entrance who would not allow him to enter. And he gave him all his thousand adumim so that they would let him in. And he had a great evil inclination about the thousand adumim — not to give them. And even the evil inclination knew that there was something there. And he entered and heard what he heard. And what he heard at that time — namely the discourse "Seal within Seal" in Likutay vol. 1, Torah 22 — it is [taken] from that Torah of that place, only it is a small portion etc.

And he said then the Torah: "Vayomer Hashem salacht'i kid'varecha" — whose initial letters spell Kosi [my cup] — of which only chapter headings were printed in Torah 177 in Likutay vol. 1. And I had ceased saying Kaddish for my mother of blessed memory. And he then said in the Torah: "May His great Name be magnified and sanctified" — as printed in those chapter headings.

And the joy that was there then — it is impossible to recount. Fortunate is the eye that saw this.

On that Sabbath he drank a little wine because of the joy of the wedding as is customary, and was in great joy and danced much, almost the entire day as mentioned above. And then he leaned on Rabbi Yudl and danced, and they sang then a beautiful and fear-awakening melody, and he danced through that melody. For it was generally his way to dance through a melody of awakening and awe. And the melody is known to us. And he said then that this melody is a melody of calling and proclamation — that through this melody all gather at the wedding — meaning, that all the holy righteous souls of his family are called through this melody to gather at the wedding: the Baal Shem Tov z"l, and his grandfather Rabbi Nachman z"l, and his pious mother of blessed memory — that they should all come to the wedding, as is explained in the holy Zohar [part 3, 219b] that at the time of a wedding all of them gather together.

And he then prayed Mincha with us together in the place where we ate the morning meal — namely in the house of study. And he prayed Mincha girded etc., and afterwards sat with us at the Three Meals as mentioned above, and began to sing B'nei Heikhala etc., and the Three Meals were in a mode of joy. And he said then: "One who is able to drink is able to atone for sins" [in Yiddish: "az a guter yid tit a trink vain ken er mochel avonos zain"]. And he said the entire Torah "Vayomer Hashem salachti" etc., whose initials spell Kosi. And afterwards in the evening he boasted that he had not yet availed himself of ancestral merit, and what was in the Land of Israel was actually a benefit to them.