Tape 101, Side B

...and for sixty years it was completely secret, did not know, did not.. Only my children—I told them the matter, yes But.. and also there were a few, select individuals who were holy tzaddikim and friends of mine I told them, and they accepted it {...} how, how is it possible to accept it? It is above, above nature Nu, and they accepted it The matter was bri.., I must speak, tell it briefly, the essence Sixty-two years ago there was such an episode, I stumbled, stumbled and fell It was on the day of {seven}, the Seventeenth of Tammuz, it is a severe fast of the Four Fasts Before {Tisha B'Av …} for the Destruction, for the Destruction And I, and I was accustomed to fasting all, all the fasts of Behab The eve of Rosh Chodesh, all kinds.. yes And also I would fast every single day From midnight until after the prayer I did not taste even water, as my holy teacher Rebbe Yisroel (Kardonner) practiced, and on the Seventeenth of Tammuz, which is a severe fast, I fell and stumbled It seemed to me that I was si.., that I did not feel well and I had to, I had to break the fast In any event, however it may be, I do not, I am ashamed to tell everything, and I.. In any event I stumbled, a descent, I descended a great descent And I ate in the morning on this fast day, this, and this weighed upon me, and I had great sorrow And.. and I fell in.. into such depression, that it was frightening—whoever looked at me, there would fall upon him d.. depression Because I did not, did not fast In any event.. And they were all opponents and.. and said: “That this is the end of, of Breslov, in the end they become crazy” They thought that this, that I had become crazy, I was always joyful

Suddenly the whole week, Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday In any event I had great sorrow and also did not.. and I could not serve Hashem I was, I was in darkness, in great sorrow, from such depression, literally as though going out of one's mind And they all rejoiced, and said: “This is the end of the Breslov Chassidim” So I prayed to Hashem that He have mercy on me and take me out of this And that I am causing, I am thereby causing disgrace, a desecration of Hashem for Breslov Then, then a {forceful} thought entered my mind, as though someone were standing and saying words to me: “Go into your room..” And there I had a cabinet “Open the cabinet and take out some book, whatever book it may be, do not intend toward any.. Put your hand on a book and take it out and open it, and open it, {...} Wherever you open it, and there you will find healing for your soul” Nu, so I had such a {forceful} thought, so I said: “What, what, what, what can I lose? I will go into the room and I will do it” Nu, I went into the room and opened the cabinet and took out a book and opened it, and there was there.. Oy, is, is it here? Oh, oh, it is here, yes This is the photograph, this is a photograph of the Petek I opened the book and this piece of paper was inside it I did not pay attention to the paper “Will the paper be a healing for me? What will {{….}} be for me, paper?” So I read the halachah where I had opened, perhaps I would find there such words, that would help me So I read and it revived me, but when I finished, the illness returned as it had been Then I became discouraged, I thought, Heaven forbid, that I have no.. I have no, no recovery, no hope, no remedy Then.. Before.. I wanted to return the book to its place

Before I closed the book, I noticed that there were, that there were here, that there were written lines, I began to read I only began to read, I saw that it was, that it was a wondrous episode “It was very hard for me to descend to you, my stude..” immediately And in general I cannot tell it, even if I were able to speak What I felt, what is in this and what {….} What there is in this cannot be revealed, cannot be told, cannot be spoken But.. good, I began to read, and I read it all, to the end I read As.. immediately when I finished reading, I entered into such joy that.. That was not of this world, only of the World to Come Such joy, I began to dance and clap my hands with such melodies of joy And those from the yeshiva heard, they knew that the whole week I was in depression And now I, they hear that I am in such joy, dancing, yes So they, they said: “Now he is completely all right, he already, there is a seal upon.. he is crazy” They came into the room and took me out to the courtyard, and the whole yeshiva made a circle And I was in the middle and danced, everyone rejoiced and everyone mocked me: “The crazy man is dancing” In general they stood for several hours, several hours, they said: “He, he is not, he is not tired, we.. We {will be, until tired, legs, ah}, cannot stand” They all went away, and I remained and danced almost the entire night Good, and since then, from that night, I acquired a name throughout the city, in Teveria.. I went from the yeshiva into the city, so everyone said, they knew that the Breslover, it is he, he had already become crazy, and I.. nu.. And this is it, this is the Petek Nu, I have no.., I am telling it as it was, and also I still am not saying everything, only..

And this I know, and likewise, and likewise much I showed it in Yerushalayim to great Kabbalists in Yerushalayim, yes And they, and they were astonished, they were so moved by it In any event I do not need to bring witnesses, it is a witness, it bears witness to itself Just to see Rabbainu's signature, with, with, with vowel points “Na.. Na Nach Nachma Nachman MeUman” That is the signature, this signature.. In his lifetime our holy Rabbainu signed his name on his letters—‘Nachman,’ ‘Nachman’ And here is written “Na Nach Nachma Nachman” with vowel points.. ‘MeUman’ This is the world, the entire world knows “Rebbe Nachman of Breslov,” and here is written ‘MeUman’ Because.. because, because he.. [There] Dwells in Uman [In Uman] Yes, yes And also he revealed to me, this—that I did not fast on the Seventeenth of Tammuz No one, no one knew Yes, would I make a desecration of Hashem, so that they would say Breslov Chassidim do not fast on the Seventeenth of Tammuz? I, it was secret, yes And it is also written here: “A sign: the Seventeenth of Tammuz—they will say that you do not fast” A sign that only I, only I and Hashem Yisborach knew of it, this is the sign And also here ‘b'Tammuz’ has vowel points, a sheva under the bet, a patach under the tav, a patach, ‘b'Tammuz’ Only this.. First of all, this is the signature, this, this is a new revelation in the world Because our holy Rabbainu speaks in “Likutay Moharan” That there is a song, ‘simple, double, triple, quadruple’ That will be revealed in the future through Mashiach Tzidkainu, that will be revealed in the future {Yes} And here he reveals that this song, ‘simple, double, triple, quadruple,’ it, it, it is this song, yes [“Na Nach Nachma Nachman”] “Na Nach,” oh, oh, yes, with, with vowel points

And also, I still cannot speak about all, all, all, all this matter What, what I see in this: "It was very, very difficult for me to descend to you" 'To descend to you'—one sees, one sees a descent; all the lines are straight, straight, only.., this is also straight But 'to descend to you'.. [To you] It goes down below [It goes down] Yes, yes, nu, good "It was very difficult for me to descend to you" If for Rabbainu Rebbe Nachman it was difficult to descend to me, 'to descend to you' This is a descent; Heaven forbid, this is very terrible, yes Nu, and immediately he strengthens me: "My precious student," "My precious student" 'Student' by itself is not, not enough? "My precious student" And it also could have been without "My precious student" "To descend to you to tell you that I have greatly enjoyed your avodah," yes No, "My precious student," he strengthens me, he, he.. He raises me from below, from the depths of the abyss, and he raises me to the loftiest heights "My precious student" "To tell, to tell you that, that I enjoyed, that I enjoyed..” [Greatly] "That I greatly enjoyed your avodah, and concerning you I said" "I greatly enjoyed your avodah" is one thing "And concerning you I said" is another thing These are two things "And concerning you I said"—what did I say concerning you? Rabbainu Hakadosh said a sichah in his lifetime: "My fire will burn until the coming of Mashiach" That is what he said; that is what is written in the sefer Chayay Moharan And here he reveals: this is what I said, what I said, "My little fire.. my fire will burn until the coming of Mashiach" Concerning you I said—it is this that I said concerning you {{….}} That through {{y.. y.. will come, AV"I}}.. The light will shine until the coming of Mashiach, 'and concerning you I said' this "And concerning you I said my fire.., my fire will burn until the coming of Mashiach

My little fire will burn until Mashiach will…" You also know Yiddish? "My little fire will burn until Mashiach comes" Nu, "and concerning you I said" Two things: "I greatly enjoyed your avodah," "and concerning you I said" You can strengthen yourself: "Be strong and courageous in your avodah" And he signed; this is already signed. He reveals two things to me "I greatly enjoyed your avodah," "and concerning you I said," and he signs it It is finished; this, this is the letter. He informs me of two things "I greatly enjoyed your avodah" "And concerning you I said: my little fire will burn until Mashiach comes" "Be strong and courageous in your avodah" I was, I, I had completely fallen in my mind, and he: "Be strong.." If so, "I greatly enjoyed your avodah, and concerning you I said" You can strengthen yourself: "Be strong and courageous in your avodah" Also the lines: one, two, three, four, five, six "In your avodah" is also a line, even, and even one is, this is a line—six And Rabbainu Hakadosh's signature is on the line, in the line [The seventh] The seventh; this is Shabbos. The tzaddik is the aspect of Shabbos And also there is the secret. Afterward: "And through this, and through this I shall reveal to you a secret, and it is" A secret: "Full and heaped from line to line (P'tz'p'tz'i'h')" This, this is the name of the angel of the blowing, of the calling, of the blowing of the shofar Only this word is in the regular writing that he wrote These are Rashi letters, and these are regular letters in which people write And one recognizes that it is handwriting [His handwriting?] His handwriting, yes, because.., with this Rashi one does not, does not, does not know [It is difficult to know] But this, this is his handwriting, yes {{AV"I}} Nu, I, I do not understand this, the secret: "And through strengthening in avodah you will understand it"

If I hold fast in the avodah of Hashem, "you will understand it" And now he tells—he, he tells me the sign, which only I knew about All, all.. this was a secret; not everyone, did not know about it, yes He reveals to me: "The sign of the seventeenth of Tammuz”—this was what had happened Oy, oy, oy, oy, oy, oy, oy, Ribono Shel Olam, Ribono Shel Olam In any case, the main thing is the words, which we need to reveal and publicize {….} And to give our lives for this matter: that the entire Redemption depends upon Rabbainu Rebbe Nachman of Breslov; to study his sefarim. He, this.. every letter, every Torah, every, every word of his is such a light, that he speaks to you, speaks what you need, all the matters that pass over you, that passed over you, that pass over you, and likewise for this one, and likewise this one, and likewise each and every one, and likewise me, and each and every one And every word Rabbainu revealed is the collective whole of every Jew What passes over him and what passed over him His illnesses.. and the remedies—not only the illnesses He, he, he, he repairs, purifies, and heals all the sick, {all of them}, all the worst ones in the world who have no recovery whatsoever; they have no, yes, no tzaddik can help them But Rabbainu Rebbe Nachman said: "And I heal her" This is the end of the tale of the 'Seven Beggars' Do you know about the tale, about the tales? Do you have Rabbainu's tales? [Yes] Yes, at the end of the tale of the 'Seven Beggars' At the end of this tale the sixth beggar says—the sixth beggar told a tale, and he said: "The princess received all the bullets with all, with all the poisons, yes, and she fainted, nu, and I.."—this is what the beggar said: "And I heal her"

This applies to all, to all the Jewish People, to each and every one "And I heal her" {There is no one ...}, already {….} she already fell; she received all the bullets and she fell "And I heal her" Only "I heal her" There is, there is no one who can heal this This.. only, only I But this is Rabbainu Hakadosh; the beggar said: "And I heal her" So Rabbainu Hakadosh revealed about, about himself that he is this beggar, that he heals her "And I heal her" (Saba draws out the word "and I") He said about himself ["I," "and I"] Yes, 'I,' yes Yes, we are fortunate; we already have all the tikkunim and remedies and salvations that each and every one of us needs, through Rabbainu Rebbe Nachman—only Rabbainu Rebbe Nachman He is the root of the Torah, he is the root of emunah, he is the root of every Jew However he is situated, to whatever place he descended, in whatever place he is He, he takes her out; he heals him, yes What, what is impossible—to heal such a sick person This is such a sick person who has no, has no, there is no, no remedy for such an illness But Rabbainu Rebbe Nachman revealed that he indeed can heal and repair everything, yes, yes, nu.. There are in this wondrous matters that are very hidden But, but it has not been revealed in the world Because I remember, seventy years ago when I became close to Rabbainu, it was forbidden to study Breslov sefarim; it was forbidden to study Breslov sefarim I found a Breslov sefer and did not know it was Breslov, and I read in it; then they saw "What are you doing? You are studying this sefer?" "Yes" Then this was the first time I heard that there is Breslov in the world I had not hear.. no, I, I did not know there is Breslov in the world; then {..} I knew there is Breslov

"You don't know that this is from the Breslov books? It is forbidden to read this" Blessed be God, today they can read in every synagogue, yes, everyone who wants to study This, these are markings, signs of the Redemption, markings that we are standing.. That we, according to, according to our understanding, according to our deeds, we already.. Already there is no, no, no rectification at all for sick people like these But Rabbainu Rebbe Nachman was already in the world, and he.. He can rectify all the illnesses and all, that there is no place that he cannot rectify and heal, yes {So I.., so….} When we hear this, then we need to give our lives To put into our hearts his holy words, his Torah teachings and the prayers and the halachos There is a book "Likutay..", books, "Likutay Halachos", do you know of this? [Likutay Halachos, and there is..] {…}, "Likutay Eitzos" ["Tefillos" and "Eitzos"] Yes, yes, yes, all of them we need [Rebbe Nassan, he wrote the..] Yes, yes, {..} We need to be expert in the book "Likutay Moharan", our holy Master said That one needs to be expert in it, so that one can say it by heart forward and backward, even backward, yes Such expertise is needed in it, because this is all our vitality, every word is all our vitality Every word of his, even one word And our holy Master revealed that he is alluded to in a verse, there is a verse in the Bible: "N'achal N'ovea M'ekor Ch'ochmah" [….] And its initial letters are Nachman And he is alluded to in this verse, "N'achal N'ovea M'ekor Ch'ochmah" He flows and flows, and flows, a source of wisdom that had not been, such wisdom as had still not been in the world We have Torah, and all the books of all the Tzadikim, and this is the root of all the Torah

This surpasses everything Through this we can draw close to the Torah, to know, to see the light of the Torah In the Torah there are, there are many powers, there is a potion of life and the opposite, yes And through our holy Master one merits to see the light of the Torah as one should Because there are, there are very hidden matters in this But now we see that the entire world, even goyim, the scholars of the goyim {At ba'unoverta}, at the university they marvel greatly at Rabbainu Rebbe Nachman of Breslov, even goyim I spoke with several people who know of this, from London and from England and.. They always speak about Rebbe Nachman of Breslov, about the stories, about, about his words, yes And one sees that the entire world is drawing itself to Rabbainu Rebbe Nachman of Breslov One sees.., there were many Tzadikim in the world, the holy Baal Shem and his disciples, and.. there were many Tzadikim; they do not speak of anoth.. only there remains for us… …They always speak about Rebbe Nachman of Breslov, about the stories, about, about his words, yes And one sees that the entire world is drawing itself to Rabbainu Rebbe Nachman of Breslov One sees.., there were many Tzadikim in the world, the holy Baal Shem and his disciples, and.. there were many Tzadikim They do not speak of anoth.. only there remains for us, as though there is one singular person in the world, Rebbe Nachman of Breslov, yes And so, the main thing for us to derive from this is that we need to give our lives To be expert in his holy words, then we will merit to.. But with faith One can study, then not.. be knowledgeable, not {a problem\seeing} anything If, if, if it is for pride, "I am Breslov", yes For, for, for, only for pride, "that here I am expert in "Likutay Moharan"” This.. the main thing is to study so that we will know how to fight, the strategies of battle

How to fight and triumph, to subdue the evil, yes Oy, oy, oy, oy.. Nu, may the blessed God have mercy on us, and we need great mercy And this we, I and my companions, saw many wonders from this holy Name "Na Na Nach Nachma Nachman MayUman" In America there was such an incident One secular man heard people speaking, he was in the place together with them, and he heard.. That we, recently we made amulets from this holy Name, "Na Na Nach Nachma Nachman" And this is efficacious for a person for all the salvations he needs This, this is a protection, like an amulet, yes He heard this, and he heard that in a time of trouble, {at a time} when a person suffers some trouble He should say aloud, besides the amulet, he should say aloud, "Na Na Nach Nachma Nachman MayUman" Nu, shoyn, he, he heard this and he is secular, he knows nothing He does not know Torah, {{.…}} faith He went with one other person in a taxi, and that day there was such cold in America and such snow And his car broke down completely, without any.. it needs a garage, it needs treatment, yes, medical treatment, it is impossible to.. And the cold was so strong, they could literally die, expire from the cold And he, {he}… ...An incident, that a girl, a baby a year and a half old, a kettle of water that had been boiling on the fire fell on her, and it fell on her face Nu, they took her to 'Beilinson' Hospital, and the doctors saw her, and they had great anguish, how she.. she is in great danger, and even if she emerges from the danger, what a face, no, no li.. And her parents saw the trouble, but they did not, did not know anything They had some, some female relative who had the amulet

She went to visit her, and she placed her amulet on, on the patient [Baby] Yes, on the baby And two days passed and it healed, and the burn went away, as though she had now been born anew She has a father and mother, everyone knows, the family, and the doctors as well The doctor who treated her, then he, he went crazy, he said to them: "What did you do? What, what, what happened?" So they told him, it is the amulet, she, she gave him the amulet He took the amulet, and to this day he does not want to return the amulet, {yes} [He wants to sing a little] Eh? [He wants to sing] Who, who is this? [This is Yisroel Dagan] Ah [It was very hard for me….] [{….} Shalom Yaish] Eh? [Rebbe Shalom Yaish, do you know him?] Sh.. Shalom.. [Yaish] {..} [No, in Teveria] [He knew.. …. the elder Shalom Yaish] {..} I do not remember, Yaish, I heard from someone.. his name is Yaish, Yaish [Yaish, Shalom, Rebbe Shalom Yaish.. he was.. a great Kabbalist….] Is he alive? [No, he passed away four years ago] [………………..……]… ...[Shlomo Carlebach sings in English about Saba]…