Tape 23, Side A

...Nu, but how do we, how, how do we pray, how {you}, our prayer, yes, and all our service, this, this has not yet reached even a drop of the sea of what Rabbainu wants, but it is forbidden to fall, and not to think that I am already, already sunk and I am accustomed this way and I cannot change—no! According to Rabbainu’s words, everyone can change from one extreme to the other, from death to life, he, he, he can, they can change in every.. And this is not only tomorrow, one time, at every moment, every day and at every time "And in His goodness He renews every day, constantly" Not only every day, constantly, this is the entire day, every moment of the day, yes "He renews every day, constantly" What is this? Every day, is this constantly? What is this? Why do we need to write another "constantly”? ‘Constantly’—even in every day there are several, many moments, in every... yes, so at every moment, constantly, every day "Constantly the work of Creation," the work of ‘Bereishis,’ the ‘head of the house’ ‘Bereishis’ is ‘head of the house,’ the master of the house of the world The master of the house of the world and the tzaddik, foundation of the world, is the holy Rabbainu Nu, according to how we seek the truth and know, and know and see And see the truth as it is, that this world is vanity, nothing As we say every day, every day we say "A person should always be God-fearing in private and in public, acknowledge the truth, and speak truth.. And speak truth in his heart, and rise early and say, Master of all worlds, not Not upon our righteousness do we cast our supplications before You, but upon Your abundant mercies" From our side we are far, standing completely outside "Not upon our righteousness do we cast our supplications before You, but upon Your abundant mercies

What are we, what are our lives, what is our kindness, what is our righteousness, what are our salvations, what is our strength" Nothing, what is our strength? What is our might? "What shall we say before You? Surely all the mighty are as nothing before You, and men of renown are as though they had never been" It is all vanity, oy "Surely all, all the mighty are as nothing before You," nothing "And men of renown are as though they had never been," men of renown, famous, men of renown, famous with a great name "{And men of renown} are as though they had never been," and this is vanity, nothing Nu, and the main thing is that we need to have mercy on ourselves, to seek Rabbainu, there is There is everything we need every day and at every time and at every moment Everything that we... the rectifications, what are the rectifications? That we merit to renew ourselves from now on at every moment, yes Not to despair, not to become confused, to cast ourselves upon Hashem Yisborach, and the holy Rabbainu says: "I, when the day comes, I cast myself and all, and, and all the matters of Of my children, of the girls and of, of the grandchildren, everything upon Hashem Yisborach" nu.. He cast, but we can say "I cast," but only, it is only.. But one specifically needs self-sacrifice, literally every day, always every day "I cast myself {upon You\to You}, Yisborach, and let everything be according to Your will" This, this is the main salvation, this is the main repentance, this is the main thing of all Not, not for me, because nothing We need to sacrifice ourselves to distance this entire world, all the vanities of this world, from our hearts It is all vanity, vanity "For, for everything is vanity, men of renown are as though they had never been, and the wise are as though without knowledge, and the discerning are as though without intelligence" The discerning, what is that? The discerning? Geniuses? This.. yes "And the discerning are as though without intelligence, for most of their deeds are chaos" Without the tzaddik it is chaos and void

"For most of their deeds are chaos, and the days of their lives are vanity before You" Nu, "except for (Saba draws out the word except for) the pure soul" Truth, this truth, only, only "the pure soul" For it, the soul, is pure of all the vanities of this world, it, it becomes distanced, yes The soul already distances itself from all the vanities of this world, it does not want, it does not want all of this.. On the contrary, this.. the world is immersed in this, and we need to sacrifice ourselves to cast it away [..] Oy vey, blessed are You, Hashem our God, King of the world, through Whose word everything came to be [Amen] Oy vey, oy vey.. Such a blessing, such a prayer as we pray But it is forbidden to fall, one can.. what is this? Until now From now on, from now on, from now on, to renew oneself every moment, I am comp... I, I am not compelled to remain this way, I can, shoyn now, yes, I am not, I am already a new matter, a new person, yes, and this is {….}.. And the main thing is the holy Rabbainu, the "Likutay Tefilos" The "Likutay Tefilos" is the "Likutay Moharan," it is the holy Rabbainu The "Likutay Halachos" is the "Likutay Moharan," it is the holy Rabbainu The "Likutay Halachos," the "Likutay Eitzos," every utterance that comes from the mouths of Rabbainu and Rebbe Nassan Rebbe Nassan is one thing; the holy Rabbainu and Rebbe Nassan are the sun and the moon Yes, day and night Sun, sun and moon This.. and we need the moon, and we have no existence without the moon, all our vitality is from the moon All the fruits and all the plants and all the bread, and without the moon, we have no existence Yes, the moon is the disciple, it is Yehoshua, it is, it is Rabbainu and Rebbe Nassan This is truth, but it is impossible to speak this truth with people Because they are immersed in what they are immersed in and do not, and do not think that it is th..

Vanity, that this is, as though it is a thing.. “What? What?, are you crazy? You are Breslov You are crazy, what are you, what are you saying? Money is nothing? Honor is nothing? You are crazy?” He cannot understand this That is how the world is, that is how the world is, there is in the world, there is a world, and there is Rabbainu Yes, if you want to be immersed in the vanities of this world? Nu, who, who, who is forcing you? Yes, if there is intelligence, then {….}, flee to the place where you need to save yourself If, and if one does not think about this? He has mercy on the children, that they should have all the honor in the world and all the money {as an inheritance} Then, then nothing, he did not do for him {...}… {…}... ["Who is the King of Glory,” this, this.. It is written in the Zohar, yes, and all the sleep and all the exile, and..] Ah.. [It is a great thing; if one does not know what one is saying, it is impossible to pray, the entire prayer is worth nothing, yes] {Yes, right}, oy.. ["Who is the King of Glory"] Oy [Oy, oy, do you want help?] [Do you want to go to the bathroom? ...] No, no, but here {we will sit together} [Okay, good, good, good, good] Oy vey, oy vey.. [……..…] Oy, oy, oy… [………….] [.…]… ...[……….] Good [………]… ...[Ah, {….}, Sharon, come over to Father for a moment..] Do you hear? You, do you hear? [This could be.., excuse me, just a moment, Tzipora wants a moment] Good, nu, shoyn [I, am I allowed to listen?] Yes, yes [Oh, good, perhaps, perhaps we will pick it up] This is for all of us [Oy, good, good, {….}, perhaps to read..] [Yes, yes, yes, yes, this..] [Perhaps he will want to read this] [This..]… ...the legal adviser […]

She is the legal adviser [Yes.. yes, yes, yes] Yes, in Shazar's days and also today [Yes] So I do not know, perhaps she is already retired, no? [What? I do not think, I do not think] No? [Two years ago we were with her] Eh? [Two years ago we were with her together] Yes, yes, yes, yes [So presumably she is still..] So you wrote her name too [Yes, both of them] So both of them are good [I said, ask, ask about, ask about the personal relations that there were between Rebbe Yisroel and President Shazar In private he told him that he was worthy of the president's chair] {..} [I wrote it] Eh? [I wrote that the president told you in private: "That you are worthy of the chair of the presidency," I wrote..] Oy, good, good, both of them are good She, Aviva, she knows such things, that there was the connection between me and the president There was.. Porush, Porush from Agudat Yisrael [Yes, yes] Menachem Porush wanted to throw me out of the apartment, and the president fought with him He is brazen, he did not want.. yes And she knows everything, it was through her, through Aviva was all, all.. yes The power of the president, what he did for this [Yes, yes] He wanted to give me an "old-age home,” an institution [In Yerushalayim?] In Yerushalayim, in Talbiya, it is American [American] It is like a hotel, it is not.. [….] Ordinary, yes He wanted to give me "Why should you, why should you..?" Menachem, Menachem Porush, "Why should you? I am giving you..” yes [All good] Yes, and I did not want, I did not want to go to an institution [Everything was because of Aharon, because Aharon was in Kfar Saba] Yes, but she knows what the president.. [Yes, what, what..] What he did for this, what self-sacrifice he had, yes

And he was brazen, he did not want to listen to him But in the end, he gave him the address of this man, of the apartment And the president prevailed upon him to leave me in the apartment all the days of my life [Yes] Nu, so in any case she knows what he did for this, yes That is good, Shulamit, she knows more than Shulamit, yes She saw the self-sacrifice he had for me, so she, to this day [And she also knows my name, that I wrote: "Sharon”] Huh? [I wrote, I wrote my name, my address, so that they should send the letter to me] Yes [So she remembers the episode when we all came to her together] Ah [A year and a half, two years ago] Yes, yes [We all came together] Yes [And she remembers the matter, that she tried to help me] Yes [To get out of the trials] Th.. you wrote that? [No, but she remembers th..] You, you remember [She, she remembers] She remembers? [She certainly remembers th..] Nu, did you speak with her? [That he ca.., no, but she certainly remembers that we all came to her] Yes, yes [And she, she called the airport] Yes [….] Yes, yes, yes, yes ,yes, yes, yes [To help with the trial] That was all.. [Everything was for now] All the sweetening was for this [For now] If they speak from the president's office [Yes, yes] This, this is not, this is not a simple thing {You came out} great, yes, this confused them [Yes] {You return} and that is all, with everyone, yes In any case, do you know about this? Tzipora informed.. [Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, blessed is Hashem] So, so.. [This..] So it can happen at any moment [Yes, yes, yes, Hashem will help]

Today or tomorrow, so we need to be.. [The main thing is that the whole matter must be kept a great secret] Huh? [The whole matter must be kept a great secret] Yes, yes, yes [The whole matter of the Petek is a great secret from the world] Yes, {...} [Please] [I, bli neder..] Ah, is this for Mordechai, Mordechai? [Yo] [No, this is for the..] [Do you also want?] [The rabbi, the rabbi, the rabbi] No, no, no [No, no, no] I do not, not [For you, Rebbe, nu, for you] [No, no, no, he drank] No, no, no, no, no, no [Abba, this is {…..}, I can give him a little more] I, I already drank [….] [I, bli neder, ah.. when you travel to Russia, I.., bli neder, bli neder] Can you travel there? [Yo, bli neder I am traveling with you] You have an American passport [Yes, yes] Yes [I, no.., I do not want to say a vow, bli neder] You need, you need to do it immediately, {...}, the earliest, the very first [Yes?] Yes! [Oh] To be, to be alive {...} [Here on Rosh Hashanah, on Rosh Hashanah here] To be alive in Russia [Oh.. good, good that you told me] Yes, yes, certainly [Yo, that I need to get organized] These are such rectifications that we have no conception [No, I want to be with you] To be at {...}, at Rabbainu's tziyun [No, I..] In Uman and to say the ten chapters of Psalms, ah, ah, the "Tikkun HaKlali" at the tziyun [But I want to travel together with you] Th.. if only [Bli neder] Nu, but I have no passport, only.. [Nu, good, but..] Only an Israeli one [If they do this, I think they will do this, that they will give you]

Yes? [This is what is needed now] No, no, they will not give me [No, but he said th..] Who said? [He needs to write to the Foreign Ministry] Huh? [Yo, that is what they are talking about] That's it? [Yo, hey.., he did not understand this] [What?] [He did not understand th, that this.. that he would receive permission to travel to..] [This will enable the Foreign Ministry..] Nu [To help.., with Hashem's help..] Yes [To do with the.., to make an agreement with the Russians] Yo [That we should come with Israeli passports] For me? [Yo, yo] [I asked for a minyan..] [That is what..] [I asked for a minyan of people, a minyan] [A minyan] [Together with you, so that you will have a minyan at the tziyun on the eve of Rosh Hashanah] On the eve of Rosh Hashanah? [Yes, yes] [A minyan] Nu, and where? There is, there is, there is.. [The Foreign Ministry] Nu [He referred it to the Russians regarding a minyan for the eve of Rosh Hashanah, for two days, three, to be in Russia] Yes [In honor of Rosh Hashanah in Russia] Yes [So..] [But they will not approve a minyan, {…}, ask for fewer] [A minyan, a minyan, it is possible to have a shofar and it is possible to do everything, to pray evening, evening..] [I say bli neder, {I will do this}, I have an American passport] [Ah, ….] I did not know, I did not know, this is the.. this is it [Yo, this] [That is the request, that is the request] Ah, I thought perhaps it was for the printing press {...} [No, no, for..] But these are Shulamit Kahana, Shulamit [Yes] [Yo] And Aviva [Yes] Sarah, she works for her [Yes] And they, they, she, Aviva, she knows such things—that I had a connection with the president, such secrets that no person knew of, and she knows, yes [Which Aviva?] And he.. Aviva is the legal adviser of, of the president

[Ah, yes] [I do not know what happened..] [Yes] [I think Aharon traveled..] {…} [To Yerushalayim, I called..]… ...I had a dream, that a wealthy man from Yerushalayim came to me [Yes] Who is a great miser [Yes] 'Ma'ayan Shtov' [Yes] 'Ma'ayan Shtov,' did you hear? Did you hear? [Yes, yes, yes] You heard, yes His father is, his father, I think he is already no longer in the world But I saw his father, and he came, and we spoke about the matter of the printing press And the servant said that it costs such and such [Yes] So he, so he took out a checkbook [Yes] And he gave a check [..] A gift, five thousand dollars, he t… [..] Yo, and he said to me, he made a check.. [Whatever you want] {…… to cost}, yes He is a miser and not.. yes And he said to me: "Do not worry, money, and there will be the printing press and there will be money and everything," yes, yes Afterward he took out more money, more dollars, another, another ten thousand He, he, he took out the checkbook, {…} [….] He gave a check [.…] More.. I was astonished, I know him, that he is not so.. [Does not do so much] This is because he.. [Yes, yes] A great miser, yes Yes, and each time he gave a check "Ten thousand? Good, one moment" He gave a check and says to me each time, and says to me: "Do not worry, there will be a printing press and there will be, and there will be, and there will be dollars" […..] [Do you hear, this..] There were, there were other, other, other wealthy people, and he, and he did not let them give checks; he immediately, {he .. gave ………} And they did not, and they also wanted to give, to make out checks But he went first, he, he went first and gave a check, so there was {….} [He is Ma'ayan, Ma'ayan, Ma'ayan]

A fountain [A fountain of dollars] Yes, 'Ma'ayan Shtov' ['Ma'ayan Shtov,' a good fountain, a good fountain, 'shtov' is good] Nu.. [‘Shtov is..] But we.. [Shtov, shtov, ‘good’] No, we do not, do not know what is happening with Aharon [..] [Aharon was, this morning he called, and he told me that he feels there is news] Why not..? He arranged a meeting at the Agency, why did you not hold the meeting? [His father was sick, and I do not remember exactly, this was already three weeks ago] Ah.. ah.. [A month ago, three weeks] Ah.. [Maybe because of the father, maybe.., the father passed away, I do not know] [The father passed away exactly, I think on Thursday..] Ah.. ah.. [I do not remember what the reason was] It, there was a reason, there was a reason [Not just like that, in the air] Ah, ah [No, I remember that he told me: "You..”] But, but there were n.. [“If I do not come, you go to..”] They needed to.. [….. told me] Notify them that today we cannot meet [Set it, yes] Ah.. [Another time] That they should make another time [Rebbe, you only need to pray that my wife] [.. this is what..] Nu [Pray that my wife and her family] Nu [That they should give money] Yes? [Their father was a tzaddik, the greatest benefactor] Yes? [And they do not, do not know to whom to give the money?] {..} Look, Rebbe.. [Ah..] Rebbe.. Rebbe, you need to pray, to pray that my wife.. Her father was the benefactor.., he gave all his money..] Yes, do they have money? [Yo] Yes? [They have millions] Yes? [Yo, you only need to pray..] Why, why do they not give..]

[Ah] Until now? [No, they became disappointed] Ah? [No, I have no influence on them, they became disappointed because..] Why? [Because they got married, there were rabbis, there were improper people] Improper [Yo, but her father, all the money he gave before his death and..] Ah [Yo, so you can pray that they should give in her name, of the..]… ...{...} [Yes] Nu, they wanted, and he also knows them [Yes] At any rate… ...[Saba and the friends sing: "In You our fathers trusted, they trusted and You delivered them To You they cried out and escaped, in You they trusted and were not ashamed.." "Na Na Nach Nachma Nachman MeUman.."] Oy, oy, Master of the World [Saba sings: "For Hashem has comforted Zion, He has comforted all her ruins And He made her wilderness like Eden, and her desert like the garden of Hashem Joy and gladness will be found in her, thanksgiving and the sound of song.." And afterward the friends also join in]… ...[Saba and the friends sing: "A foretaste of the World to Come is the Sabbath day of rest All who delight in it will merit abundant joy From the birth pangs of Mashiach they will be delivered into relief Cause our redemption to sprout, and sorrow and sighing will flee To delight in delicacies, fatted fowl, quail, and fish Return to the Temple and to the Holy of Holies The place in which spirits and souls rejoice together {{Singing}} songs and praises In Yerushalayim, the city of beauty" To the melody of "Na Na Nach"] [We also want you also to come there..] [Nu] Ah Saba sings: "The harvest passed, summer ended, and we were not saved.."] This melody is hisbodedus [Yes …] Of the month of Elul [Yes] Our people went, went at night.. [Yes] To the forest [Yes, after midnight] At midnight, after midnight [Yes] And cr.., it was a time to cry out

[Yes] This is in the month of Elul [Yes, yes] So, so, 'The harvest passed [Yes] The month of Elul is already the end, the end, the whole summer has already passed [The whole summer, yes] 'And we were not saved' So this was hisbodedus, a kind of hisbodedus [Saba and the friends continue singing: "The harvest passed, summer ended, and we were not saved.."] There were such cries in the forest, from the depths of the heart [Yes] Where are we? The harvest passed, already 'The harvest passed, summer ended, and we were not saved' what will be w.. [..] When will we merit teshuvah? When? Elul [Yes] Oy [They are speaking about teshuvah, it, it..] [Yes, yes, yes] [The wording is th..] [Time passed..] 'The harvest passed, summer ended,' all {our prayer}, it is not only the.. {...} [Yes, yes] [All our years] Already everything, passed, everything passed and we were not saved A little more and we are going to the World of Truth, what will become of us, what will be..” [Yes, yes, yes] 'The harvest passed, summer ended,' all, all our lives passed, all, all, all our strength Everything passed and we were not saved [You see, this..] This is a great awakening […...] It is not only this harvest, "The harvest passed..”, it is all, it.. [It is every summer] "The harvest passed" [All of life] And we were not saved, {...} [Yes] [Who wrote these songs? No, who..?] I do not know [Oh] I only know that there is such a song [Yo, yo] […………]… ...[Hisbodedus] Like this? [But I do not know what..] With whom? [Th..] {….} [No, in the forest, we walked in the forest, he cried out..] Oy, oy.. [He] Oy.. You were never there? {… you heard} from the words of Rebbe Nassan..] [No, no, he speaks only Hebrew]

Words of Rebbe Nassan.. [….] {….} To this day, how it came out of his mouth There was not, then there was not [……..] [Yes..] He.., I was a baker, so there was in Teveria.. [Hebrew, Hebrew, Saba] Someone opened, a great, a millionaire, th.. [You m..] [Speak Hebrew] [Speak Hebrew..] {..} [He does not understand Hebrew, Rebbe, he does not understand Yiddish] Before, before many years [Yes] A hotel opened in Teveria [Yes] A hotel with all the desires [Yes] A special hotel [Yo] And the owner, and the hotel owner, his name was Feingold [Yes] [Feingold] [Yes] [All the desires] And he.. [And I remember him] I was a baker [Yes] And he wanted the baker who was the most, most expert and the best and the most.. [Yes] Expert [This, this is Saba] [Yes] So they told him: "Odesser, the Odesser Bakery," yes So he sent for me [That was his wife..] I came, and he bought from me.. [Bread] Bread [Yes] Challah, and bread, yes [This is a great rabbi, Rabbi Yisroel] [Rolls] And he.. ah? What? [Was that Rabbi Yisroel?] [No, no] No.. [No, this is someone who opened a hotel] [….] [He did not understand Yiddish] Slowly, slowly [Yes, yes, yes] Yes, I had a bakery [Yes, yes, yes, yes] [They needed someone who would be a baker] [Ah, ah] [A good baker, you know, so they chose him] I was a baker, I was a baker, and all the {counsel\foundation} of the bakery [Ah..] Nu, and everyone was, was jealous of me: "Yisroel Ber the Breslover, he made it, he rose on high, t.., higher and higher.. We are all poor, we have no money, and Yisroel Ber the Breslover has a bakery, a bakery? A bakery is, it is, it is a factory for money..

[Yeah] A bakery? What is that?" [It is a factory for making money] And I, everyone envied, envied [Yes] And I have miracles that I did not become blind The tears fell by themselves, I do not need to think, {to prepare} To.. that they should fall, that there should be tears [Yes] The tears came out by themselves I did not want to, I, I was afraid that I would be, would be blind [Yes] What? These are tears, this, this, this, for the eyes this, this is very terrible [Yes] Yes, it takes away the light, the light of the eyes [Yes] But I did not want to cry [Yes] But it came out by itself.. [Why did you cry?] {Where I was} I do not want, they fell [Why?] From the magnitude of the anguish that I had [Ah, ah] [Huh?] What? What is the money for? What.. [Oh, he cried, that he..] {What is this?} [Is making money, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah] [Yeah] Yes [So when did you leave?] So ah.. [He cried..] [He started to cry because he started making money, he started to cry] Feingold.. [He was afraid of becoming blind] [Feingold?] Yes [The owner of the hotel?] The owner, the owner of the hotel, yes He was learned in books and he, and he loved to hear words of Torah I spoke with him about Rabbainu, and he was impressed and he.. And I was unique in the world to him, yes [Yes] Yes, so he had such a machine, he, many years ago It was, he had.., a great rich man and he had such a thing So he said to me: "I want to hear, I heard that you sing on Shabbos "Aishes Chayil" and.. [Yeah] And zemiros, I want to hear" So he took this [Yeah] I, I, and I did not know, I sang After all, he wants to hear, so I said "Aishes Chayil", yes

Afterward, the next week, he called me and he opened it, and I hear that I.. [Your voice …...] [It was perhaps..] This, how is such a thing possible? [Now there is..] What is this? Yes [It was..] [..much more, sixty years..] [It could be that such a thing before..] [There was, there was, there was, yeah, yeah..] Yes, yes [Forty years] Yes [Yes] Yes, yes, it was not so {cheap}, but it existed [It existed, it existed] [Yes, yes, yes] [I told anyway, how Father told]…