Letter 273

[Prayer]

"…With insolence and treachery — until I have become distanced from You as I have become distanced — in the very ultimate of the ultimate of distance. For through every sin and transgression and blemish — I have corrupted a channel and a pathway and a lane of wisdom and understanding. Through which I would have been able to attain the attainment of Your G-dliness. Until — through the very great multitude of my sins without measure and worth and number — and they have weighed more than the sand of the sea and multiplied more than the dust of the earth — through this I have corrupted and destroyed and ruined all kinds of channels and pathways and lanes of holy wisdom. And I have destroyed the paths through which one attains You…"