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For Hashem Yisbarach knows — that I love each and every one of the Anash — and I judge each and every one favorably — as Rabbainu z"l desired. And our matter is sustained by affection. And because of the troubles that were filled with expansivenesses — my mind was confused — to write to you letters at every occasion. And G-d willing when Hashem Yisbarach helps and gives a complete healing to my wife, may she live — surely G-d willing my strength will be renewed — to write to you letters at every occasion. For blessed be G-d — in our business — there is much, much to speak about — and to arouse each person his companion. And also it was certainly my desire — that our strong friend — the wondrous young scholar Morainu v'Rabbainu Eliezer, may his candle shine — and together with Reb Aizik, may his candle shine — should come to me — so that we might hold a fellowship assembly together [להתועד עמהם ביחד — "to hold a fellowship assembly together" — from va'adeh / hitva'adus — the specific Breslov institution of Chassidim gathering together in fellowship for Torah-talk, mutual encouragement, and spiritual renewal; hitva'adus is a distinct and treasured Breslov practice, not merely a casual gathering]. But what can I do — for my wife, may she live, is not in good health. And there are several reasons for this: one is — that one must fulfill the commandment of hospitality with a generous and open eye — and now I cannot — for many times I have nothing to eat — because of my wife's weakness. And also if my wife were in her health — she would go to sleep at my sister's, may she live — and now she cannot. And I have no place to bring in guests such as these. And G-d willing in this summer I will come to you — for two weeks G-d willing. And for the present time — love yourselves with a complete love. Words of one who truly loves you, Nussun from Breslov Written Wednesday, Iyar 5642 (May 1882) — date encoded in the acrostic of Psalms 6:11. The wife still ill. Cannot host visitors. Promises to visit Tzfas for two weeks this summer. "Our matter is sustained by affection." נ נח נחמ נחמן מאומן