קלו

I am very, very astonished — that you have withheld the fruit of your pen — not to inform me about your son, may his candle shine. For we had news at the time that you wrote to me with Reb Altir — that your son, may his candle shine, is ill, G-d have mercy — but he did not give me the letter — for it was lost with him — only orally he told me. And immediately I and my wife and my sister, may she live, went to the holy resting places — and I gave from my own money as a gift — a redemption for him. And I wrote to you two letters after this — and in the end we have no news at all. And the magnitude of the anguish of our soul is beyond all estimate and reckoning — for our eyes are consumed with watching. [כלתה עינינו — "our eyes are consumed, spent" — from Psalms 69:4 — "my eyes are consumed" — kalu einai; eyes that have given everything to constant watchful scanning and are now utterly consumed by the waiting] And every day I go and ask — and they do not know. And even from Reb Aizik, may his candle shine — sometimes we have letters from him — and now — in order to cause us suffering — and may it serve as an atonement for transgression. For Rabbainu z"l said: through sufferings one is saved from many burning wounds of Gehinnom — even through light sufferings. And particularly sufferings such as these — where our very life hangs almost upon you. And particularly since we have a partnership in the eternal business. More there is nothing new — only life and peace. Your friend, one who truly loves you — truly and in truth, Nussun from Breslov Undated — shortly after Shavuos 5642. Deep anguish — two letters sent, no reply. "Our eyes are consumed with watching." Sufferings save from burning wounds of Gehinnom. נ נח נחמ נחמן מאומן