...[………]… ...[He said that now he received curses, they put curses and sorceries upon him And every time it is very hard to work, to do the service of Hashem, and he..] It is hard for me to hear and to speak, I told you [Yes]… ...And I am sick [Yes] I cannot hear and not, and not speak… ...{…} [Ah, good, good, good..] No, do not speak with me [Good, I only said that I..] Do not speak with me at all… …[His condition, good] I myself am suffering, that is already enough for me [Good]… ...{…..} [………] [And he needs from the money..]… ...{..…}… ...And to cry out, but he already does what he does… ...There was another matter I would cast away, and I would {throw} everything in order to serve Hashem, blessed be He […...] But to tell others, I do not know, I do not know what, what, what to say […...] It depends on the person's heart, if he, how much he, he {cries out} It is hard to say, but I see after the deed, I {know} that I did not do well; you should have cast it away and occupied yourself with Torah, and with prayer [……….] [……….] [Excuse me, Saba, if you had merited in prayer, would you have been Moshiach? That is what we heard, Saba..] I suffered, I and the children suffered great hunger [Yes] And there was.. but nevertheless, if I had cast it away, it would, I would have had more gain [……..] [….….] What is this? [……..] [……..] What is this? [These are fish from the Kinneret] Eh? [This is a fish from the Kinneret] [……] {I do not want} [.…….] […..…] No, no [……..] [……..]… ...{..} And I saw that the main thing depends on the heart, according to the desire, according to.. Then he, he does not look at all matters and su.., casts himself upon Hashem, blessed be He, upon faith, yes, but he does not.., it is impossible to say, it depends on him, on the person himself

If he is ready to sacrifice himself for the service of Hashem, then it is certainly better [….…] […] Oy, human beings, great compassion, for one who does not merit to sacrifice himself for Hashem, blessed be He For the service of Hashem, blessed be He, and to cast away this entire world completely For what? And only to occupy oneself with hitboded.., awakening, with Torah and prayer {Certainly, and then it is very good} But to tell others {this} is hard, I do not know how much.. {Certainly}, everything one does more of the service of Hashem in truth, that is good, that is the great main thing But according to the law, he has a livelihood; this way he has no livelihood, he has confusions At any rate, I do not know what, what to say But I, for myself, learned in my life that it is better to revive oneself and cast away everything for the service of Hashem, whatever will be.. [……….] […..…..] To this day I regret it, but after the deed [….……] [……]… ...Great compassion upon us, one who has no need {to.., true} He himself needs to know and to pray that he merit, that he merit to abandon himself for the service of Hashem For every moment of Torah and prayer I, {yes}, also wanted like everyone, I wanted, but But I did not have, I did not have {true} intellect [Did not have..?] [True intellect] [……….] [……] Ah, oy […….…] [….……] [He wants to show us that the choicest thing is the service of Hashem] Certainly [……….] [……….]… ...{Doubts} from this side, from this side, what to do? I had trials, and I did not withstand the trial {I served, I served, and much more, and I studied}, but I did not merit this If I had merited to withstand the trial, it would now be.. "Fortunate.." [Saba sings: "Fortunate is the man who trusts in You.."]

[……...] Oy.. [………] [….…..] We Jews, we merited to kill all the {faces\enemies}, from Torah {and from this and from this}, yes, but the Jews—we, we made prayer and fasting and repentance But lately and in the end one sees that I did not do well, I did not do well that I did not, that I did not merit to fulfill "Fortunate is the man who trusts in You" […….] […….] I had {the.., many things}, livelihood, livelihood The meaning of the whole world is livelihood, livelihood, to cast aside all the service of Hashem, livelihood But the truth is "Fortunate is the man who trusts in You, fortunate is the man who trusts in You, fortunate is..” Now I, I feel it, but after the fact I did not merit to fulfill it, and now I have regret over it, but after the fact Oy vey When there are children who need bread and there is none to give, I have no bread to give them, this is a great trial [……..] [……..] It is better when a person is not clever and does not think much, no, no Only strong, mighty Nu, according to the might, according to the heart one merits, merits the truth Nu [……..] [……..] {Oy . .}.. I regret and regret, and regret, but I did not merit My wife did not want anything, not clothes and not.. bread, I had no bread to give, and if only I had not had pity on the wife and on the children, {yes} And to cast it upon Hashem, may He be blessed, to believe and strengthen oneself in trust in Hashem, may He be blessed Better, certainly [….]… ...[.. to tell him, Rebbe Yisroel] Eh?… ...[…….…] "Fortunate is the man who trusts in You, fortunate is the man.." To fulfill, to fulfill it, not only to say it I regret, I want, I want, I want, but where are you? [.. he tells how he used to work, he said that he did not merit to believe in Hashem, may He be blessed, and to be.., to fulfill "Fortunate is the man who trusts in You," yes

He said that it is hard, that he had no bread.. yes, yes, yes, yes, yes.. No, no, no, no, he was with her yesterday……… Yes, yes, he.. yes, and he returned today.. apparently th.. this, this ……..] We say on every Rosh Chodesh: "And because of our sins we were exiled from our land and distanced from our soil And we are unable to ascend and appear and bow before You" [.. Shlomo, good, good, good, thank you very much.. yes, yes, yes….. yes, ye.. yes, yes, yes…..] I did not want to, now is the time {what I di.., no.. but after..} [With Hashem's help, but.. no, the address is needed.. Yes, perhaps Tzipporah knows your address..] I did not merit, I did not merit to withstand the trial [………….] What, the whole world will say crazy, crazy, he is crazy The wife too will say crazy, and the father too, and the family too, and the whole world will say that he is crazy; he had a livelihood, but he casts it aside in order, in order to serve Hashem [What?] Yes, nu […..] Oy vey [.. and what is the bus……...] Oy gevald, oh.. I want, want, now is the time, {what}, it is gone It is impossible, because of this it is impossible to do anything Who owes you? The heart owes No, if you had a {whole} heart as, as one needs, perhaps you would, would have profited [Yes, yes, that tells me something, yes.. yes, yes, eh…….] [Do you want to drink?] Is there? [A little] [……………………………………………………...] The holy Rabbainu said: "At the time when a person is lying with his feet toward the door [……..] He regrets very much that he did not listen to me" [……...] Nu, fortunate is one who listens to Rabbainu and strengthens himself to stand against the whole world

But, but afterward.. {…, but there is what to do, oy, no, no, no, it does not help, yes} Eh, all my days I was.., I had doubts, and now I have no doubts at all that I did not do well {But afterward} […………..] The whole world: "Livelihood, livelihood, livelihood, livelihood" [………] This, livelihood, this, this is a great trial, and I did not withstand it I am ashamed to tell, I did not, did not withstand it, yes, and I did not merit to overcome like.. to overcome Oy.. I saw Hashem, may He be blessed, showing that He is the Master of the house He is my Master and the Master of the whole world, yes {.….} I had such a gain for myself, and I left it for, for, for money […...] For livelihood [……] But the world speaks only about livelihood, "Does he have a livelihood?” I heard from someone who said, who told some, some story: There was someone wh.. among those who serve Hashem, there was.. A woman came so that he would perform a mitzvah, and she did not, did not know how to read, since she had received a letter from her son She received a letter and did not know, and did not know the meaning He.. she asks him, that he, that he should read the letter so that she would understand what.. what was written in it Nu, he read the letter, and saw that he had been ill and passed away She, she, she did not understand what 'passed away' was, so she said to him: "Mifter, pifter, the main thing is whether he has a livelihood?" The 'mifter, pifter,' this, this does not bother me, the main thing is whether he has a livelihood?" He did not want to tell her what was written, and explained 'mifter'; he said: "It is written there that he passed away" She did not understand what 'passed away' was, so again and again, "Mifter, pifter..” Then she, then she said to him: "That does not concern me, 'mifter, pifter,' the main thing is livelihood"

Livelihood That is how the whole world is: "Livelihood, livelihood" And livelihood means always working for money He has no k.., he has no time, {only livelihood} But at times when a person lies with his feet toward the door, he regrets very much He regrets very much that he left, that, that he took {the station} "livelihood, livelihood" [Hello, shalom] Yes Everything must be given to Hashem, may He be blessed The livelihood and the sleep and the eating and sleep and everything to Hashem, may He be blessed […………..] Yes, when a person will lie, will lie on the ground with, with his feet toward the door Then he will have, he will have regret.. over the livelihood […………...] The whole world: "Livelihood, livelihood, livelihood, livelihood" [………..….] Oy, the woman said to the one who read the letter, he said: "Mifter, pifter" Then she did not, did not know what.. then she said to him, she shouted and said to him: "What is this, this does not concern me, 'mifter, pifter,' this does not, this does not..” yes "I only want to know whether he has a livelihood" What livelihood? There is 'mifter, pifter,' what is this, {what if} he has a livelihood [………...] The woman, the woman shouted: "What is this? Why? 'Mifter, pifter,' this I do not want to know I want to know only whether he has a livelihood" [……., Saba, Rebbe Yisroel] Nu [Rebbe.. Rebbe Yisroel] “'Mifter, pifter,' this is not, not important, the main thing is whether he has a livelihood" [Rebbe Yisroel] What is the money for? For vanity, what does he have? What, what is there in it? Then when he lies with his feet toward, toward the door, then he already knows He, he already knows that he left, left everything for the money, for vanity [Saba, Saba, your grandson, the son of Nassan] Eh? [He, he wants to know whether he can visit you today?]

Who? [Ronen, Nassan's son] The son [Ronen, your grandson, Nassan's son] Nassan's son? [Yes, he wants to know when he can come visit you?] I do not understand, did he write to you? Did he speak with you? [On the telephone] [On the telephone, on the telephone] On the telephone? [Yes] What is his name? [Ronen, Ronen, Ronen, Nassan's son] [The grandson, your grandson] Nassan's son? [Yes] [Your grandson] Yes? [Yes] [Yes] He asked [If he can come visit you today] Eh? [When, when] [If he ca.., when can he visit you?] {…}, tell him to visit, all day and all night, let him visit [……yes, yes, yes… good] If only, if only [... if only, certainly] He, he wants to visit, that is also good I also want {a promise}, but after, after the time Oy, oy, oy.. I have a story to tell: I sat in the yeshiva, I wrote letters for the yeshiva so that they would send money, money, livelihood, money.. And I wrote falsehoods, lies: "There are people who sit and occupy themselves with Torah, and they need to be given livelihood” [……...] [……...] So I said: "Why do I need the money, it is a waste of time, I will not, not write" But I wrote, I wrote letters so that they would send money, {livelihood}, send livelihood, send money […..] Nu, I did not listen, and I sat at the table and wrote the letter, so I would have livelihood A mad dog came into the synagogue and stood beside me, and it wanted to bite me, and it went and came back and.. So I said: "Shoyn, {oys} (outside), no livelihood, because of a mad dog.." [………] […..….] Hashem Yisbarach, I saw that in a moment.. the dog is standing and wants to bite

If, and if it bites, then there is already nothing to do [……..] [..……] {..}, it wanted to bite, and baruch Hashem it did not bite, but I fell asleep and…