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Overview: Tuesday, Parshas Eikev — Tshehrin — 5604. To his beloved son. On Wednesday — the eve of Tisha B'Av — he arrived here in peace. And they wept on Tisha B'Av. And in His compassion — they merited to rejoice on Shabbas Nachamu — for atah Hashem azartanu v'nichantanu. There is no leisure to extend — for the postal is urgent. On the past Sunday he received his letter — and it was a comfort to him. But he was very displeased — that he did not write him a specific greeting from his son Rabbi Dovid Tzvi — for he heard in Uman that he is not in good health. He was very awaiting to receive a letter from him personally — or at least from him to inform him of his health — whether he has returned to his strength. Just now he has great pain from this — and he awaits good news from him.

Yesterday he came here from Krumintchag. And he found what he had hoped and waited for — his good letter — that informed him of his good health — that in the chasadim of Hashem — the sprouting of his salvation has begun — to return to his strength quickly — with Hashem's help. And his spirit revived — for very greatly did his pain and suffering unto his very soul — when he heard in Uman that he is not in good health. And in particular when he arrived here and received a letter from his brother — his son Rabbi Yitzchok — may he live — and he did not mention a word of his health — his pain and the longing of his eyes grew without measure. And what shall he return to Hashem for the past — that He let him hear yesterday — in his letter — that praised be G-d — he has begun to return to his strength. Would that he merit to hear quickly the good tidings — that praised be G-d — he has returned to his strength fully — Amen so may it be His will.

And regarding the main of all the main — what he mentioned in his letter — his very bitter cry — that his main intention is about the pain of his sins — through the great arousal of the adversary — and so forth — that the evil thoughts assail him very greatly — which are the essential evil inclinations. Behold he has heard his cry — and he has known his pains — from long ago and from now. Even though his heart yearns — "mei'ai mei'ai ochilah" — for "b'chol tzarascha li tzar" — and very greatly does his pain and suffering grow. But in this very thing — he comforts and gives life to himself — that in the wonders of Hashem and His great chasadim — you are still crying out in such a bitter and bitter cry that rises to the heart of the heavens.

And know and believe — my beloved son — that also your cry and your groaning — in your letter — is heard and understood and hearkened to and listened to — by Hashem Yisborach and by His true tzaddikim. And they think thoughts to save you. And regarding what the salvation is delayed — there are very very hidden matters in this — for very very deep are His thoughts Yisborach. And certainly the obstacle is on our side — in that we do not awaken ourselves to overcome the evil thoughts as befitting. And also Hashem Yisborach desires and longs for the prayer of Israel — even of the most lowly among the lowly — and He wants you to multiply praying and crying out to Him Yisborach more and more. But even so — also your bitter cry is not lost at all.

And now my beloved son — begin from now — to explain to yourself the Torah anew — on the verse "azamrah Lelokai b'odi" — and begin anew to accustom yourself to walk with it every day anew. And from my love for you and the obligation to fulfil "v'shinantam l'vanecha" and "v'limadtem osam es b'neichem" — behold I am teaching you some words of this Torah anew — in the vernacular tongue — so that the words enter your heart to walk in them with wholesomeness and simplicity:

When a person sees that he is very lowly — he must not fall. Rather he is obligated to give life to himself — and to consider and settle himself: Have I not done something good even once? Have I not done a mitzvah? I fast on Yom Kippur and on Tisha B'Av — and also on all four fasts — even though my heart aches very greatly. And sometimes I go to the mikveh. And even within all the corruptions — G-d protect me — I toil very greatly — and I want very much to save myself. And however it may be — in any case — I have some good points — what I have done several times — the will of the Creator Yisborach. And with this one must give life to himself — and not despair at all.

As is written in the book in the holy tongue — look there carefully. Only I have repeated for you some words in the vernacular — to enter the words into your heart anew. And if — G-d forbid — even so the adversary overcomes — one must then return again and walk with this — and so every day and every time. And in the meanwhile Hashem Yisborach helps greatly. And in particular — to strengthen oneself to say and to converse all this before Hashem Yisborach — and to say:

Master of the Universe — as I am — as I am — as You know — and I know my pain — even so You did with me an everlasting chesed — and You created me from the seed of Israel — and did not make me — and I was circumcised and blood was shed on the eighth day. And in cheder I learned the aleph-beis and the siddur and the Chumash and the Gemara. And how many cuts and sufferings did I suffer from the teachers — and I myself also toiled greatly many times. What can one do — retzonai la'asos retzonecha ach se'or she'ba'isa m'ak'vani — my will is to do Your will — but the leaven in the dough delays me. And if the holy Tanna in the Gemara was not ashamed to say this — certainly we need not be ashamed to cry this before Hashem Yisborach in all kinds of languages of crying — as you cry out before me in your letter — many times — bitter bitter bitter bitter — help help — thus you must cry with a whole heart every day before Hashem Yisborach.

And if — G-d forbid G-d forbid — even so the adversary overcomes — one must cry out more and more — and so every time — until Hashem looks down and sees from Heaven — for Hashem will not forsake forever. And in particular since we have an elder-father — the elder of elders — whose power is very great and awesome — without end and without limit.

And he guarantees you — my beloved son — that however it is — however it is — certainly our Rebbe — of blessed memory — will rectify you with a wondrous rectification. Only be strong and bold — to fulfil his words — to overcome and gladden your soul through this. And remember well everything that he has spoken with you recently — and what you have already heard before. And force yourself greatly to study the books of our Rebbe — of blessed memory — every day — a little or a great deal. In any case — let no day pass over you without studying the books of our Rebbe — of blessed memory — and the Shulchan Aruch. And may Hashem Yisborach help you to add every single day to study more — and also to express your conversation before Him Yisborach — as a son before his father — a little or a great deal every day. And for the rest of all the day — force yourself to gladden your soul in all that is possible. Only beware and beware — that the madness of the thoughts that have passed over you — as is known to you — should not arise in your thoughts. For however it may be — Hashem Yisborach desires our survival — for a living dog is better than a dead lion. And he hopes to Hashem that it will be fulfilled in you: "v'hayah reishischa mitzar v'acharischa yisgeh m'od." And the essential — that you nullify your will before his will — which is the will of our holy and exalted Rebbe — the memory of the righteous and holy one for a blessing — for it is your life. And his desire would be to extend more — but the time of prayer has arrived. And he urged himself to write immediately before the prayer — for this letter is the essential fulfilment of the commandment of Shema — to fulfil "v'shinantam l'vanecha" and "v'limadtem osam es b'neichem" — in particular these words flowing from the source of life — from the flowing stream — the source of wisdom — from the heights of the highest heights — that can give life even to you and to those much worse than you — thousands of times. And know and believe — my son — that there have already been among us people who were much worse than you — and they drew close to Hashem Yisborach through such and such words that we received from him — of blessed memory. And some of them passed away to the eternal life of the World to Come in peace — and their portion is in eternal life — through the power of our Rebbe — of blessed memory. And those who are still alive — they are upright people — and certainly their end will be good — with Hashem's help. And it is impossible to extend about this in the open field. The words of your father — who writes with tears and with joy — through the hope for a good end for all of us. And also for me and for you and for all Israel — will there be a good end — through the holy tzaddik — the elder of elders — in whom we take refuge — for ultimately all will be rectified. But how great are the chasadim of Hashem — that we know of the one who engages in our rectification — and we are not opponents — G-d forbid — against the one who strives for our eternal salvation. Ashreinu ashreinu. Baruch Elokeinu. Nussun of Breslov. Overview: Thursday, Parshas Re'eh — Tshehrin — 5604. To his son Dovid Tzvi. Yesterday he came from Krumintchag — and found what he had hoped and waited for — his good letter — that in the chasadim of Hashem the sprouting of his salvation has begun. His spirit revived — for very greatly had his pain grown when he heard in Uman that he is not in good health — and in particular when he arrived here and his brother Rabbi Yitzchok's letter did not mention him at all — his pain grew without measure. And regarding the main of all — the bitter cry in his letter about the pain of his sins — through the great arousal of the adversary and the evil thoughts. He has heard his cry and known his pains. His heart yearns — "mei'ai mei'ai ochilah — b'chol tzarascha li tzar." But in this very thing he comforts himself — that in the wonders of Hashem — you are still crying out with such a bitter cry that rises to the heart of the heavens. Know and believe — that Hashem and His true tzaddikim hear your cry and think thoughts to save you. Regarding the delay of the salvation — there are very very hidden matters — for very very deep are His thoughts Yisborach. He will teach him the Torah of azamrah Lelokai b'odi anew — and quoted the Rebbe's teaching in Yiddish: When a person sees he is very lowly — he must not fall — rather he must give life to himself and consider what good he has done — he fasts on Yom Kippur and Tisha B'Av — he has some good points — with this one must give life to himself and not despair at all. And formulated the personal prayer in Yiddish: Master of the Universe — as I am — as You know — even so You did with me an everlasting chesed — created me from the seed of Israel — I was circumcised — in cheder I learned aleph-beis and Chumash and Gemara — I suffered greatly from the teachers — I toiled greatly — my will is to do Your will but the leaven in the dough delays me. And if the holy Tanna in the Gemara was not ashamed to say this — we certainly need not be ashamed to cry this before Hashem in all languages of crying. He guarantees his beloved son — that however it is — our Rebbe will rectify him with a wondrous rectification. Be strong and bold. Let no day pass without studying the books of our Rebbe and the Shulchan Aruch. V'hayah reishischa mitzar v'acharischa yisgeh m'od. He writes with tears and with joy — through the hope for a good end for all of us. Ashreinu ashreinu. Baruch Elokeinu.

[Hebrew: נָתָן מִבְּרֶסְלֶב...]