תּוֹרָה עו - וַיְהִי אַחַר הַדְּבָרִים הָאֵלֶּה

Torah 618

Through trust in Hashem Yisborach — looking and gazing to Hashem Yisborach alone and trusting in Him — through this one makes a vessel for the abundance. And one merits that abundance and livelihood come to one at the needed time — in the aspect of: ""the eyes of all hope to You"" [Psalms 145:15]. And through this: ""and You give them their food in its time"" — that is, at the time it is needed.

There is the aspect of ""my soul thirsts"" — like one who is very thirsty and drinks even bad water. Similarly in the service of the Creator, may He be blessed — there are people who are always in the aspect of thirst and always learn and serve His service, may He be blessed. And they are always in the aspect of thirst — for their soul is constantly thirsting for the service of Hashem. But it is without time [z'man] and without intellect [sechel]. For sometimes: ""the nullification of Torah — that is its fulfilment"" — and as it is written: ""a time to act for Hashem — they have violated Your Torah"" [Psalms 119:126]. And the primary thirst is because they are in the aspect of constricted minds [mochim d'katnus] and do not merit the renewal of minds [hischadshus ha-mochim]. And they are in the aspect of the blind in G-d's service — and the blind person has no satiety — as our Sages of blessed memory said [Yoma 74b]. And therefore they cannot satisfy their soul or slake their thirst in the service of Hashem. And this is the virtue of drawing close to the Tzadikim. For through this one merits that the service will be in the aspect of sight and intellect — which is then in the aspect of proper boundary and time. And not in the aspect of thirst. Therefore one must strive to draw close to the Tzadikim. For even one who is always learning and serving His service — does not know how to conduct himself in his service without the Tzadik.

Through teshuvah from love — no trace of the sins remains. And then one merits to pray and to learn with pure intellect — which is the aspect of expanded minds [mochim d'gadlus]. And then one merits to pray properly and to learn and understand without laboured effort [b'li iyun]. And one merits to renew one's mind each and every day.