קלב

Master of the Universe I remembered the days of old; I meditated on all Your works; on the work of Your hands I muse [Psalms 143:5]. I spread out my hands to You; my soul like a thirsty land for You — Selah [Psalms 143:6]. I shall recall the deeds of Yah — for I shall remember from the beginning Your wonder [Psalms 77:12]. Remember — you shall remember; and my soul bows down over me [Lamentations 3:20]. Master of the Universe — Who remembers all forgotten things: You are from eternity; and there is no forgetting before the Throne of Your glory. Help me and save me for Your Name's sake — that I merit to well remember all the words of the true tzadikim; that I merited to hear from their mouths and to see in their books. Grant me merit that I well remember through the power of beautiful memory each and every word that issued from their mouths — that I heard from their mouths; or from the mouths of their writings. For You know the immensity of the lofty sublimity of each and every holy word that issued from their mouths — even in worldly matters; which have no measure comparable to them; for all their words are truth and righteousness. And one who merits to receive their words in truth and to engrave them well in the power of his memory — receives the face and the intellect and the soul of the tzadik; and engraved in the understanding of the one who receives and who hears is the light of the face of the tzadik and his intellect and his soul; all the more so when one hears from them holy words of Torah. And through Your abundant mercies You carved ears for me [Psalms 40:7]; and many times there flashes within my heart — even a little of the immensity of the wonders of the holiness of their awesome words that illuminate the earth and its inhabitants with very wondrous and awesome light beyond searching. Until my heart is aroused a little to draw close to You in truth. But through my many iniquities — the forgetting overpowered me; and the light of their illuminating words was forgotten from me; and I grew distanced from You as I have grown distanced; and I forgot my goodness and let go of their holiness. I was forgotten like a dead man from the heart — I became like a lost vessel [Psalms 31:13]. Therefore I have come before You — Master of mercies; Reminder of forgotten things [mazkir nishkachos]: that You have mercy upon me from now; and may You grant me merit to remember from now all the words of truth that I shall hear from the mouths of the true tzadikim; or that I shall study in their holy books. And may You remind me through Your mercies all that I have already heard and forgotten — all of it may You remind me through Your mercies. And may I not forget anything from my learning all the days of my life forever.