Fires of Israel - Part 17

He passed away not long ago – roughly ten years ago.

Nu, and he nebach suffered tremendously, and he was in an old age home. There it was hell – not upon us and not upon us (*translator's note – for many years Saba was in an old age, where he had only one small room – there are videos of it, from the end of his stay when people started visiting him and shortly thereafter broke him out, from here we can understand what it was like for him….) - a type of hell, such – that I wondered; “He should always be depressed?!” “I am situated in a hell – I am situated in such a place!” And he was always happy, and his mind was only set (-placed, resting) in Likutay Moharan, in the Toaroas (-holy teachings) of Rebbe'n!

I would come almost every day to him in the old age home to visit him – to see his condition, and I saw how his mind with his heart were set (-placed, resting) just by HY! He yearned for humility and for joy – and he felt that he is completely distant! I spoke with him, such….

Songs of Shabbos

The “Reeboan <Master> Kul <of all> Hu-oalumim <the worlds> (-sung on Friday night after Shalom Alaichem)” he (R' Yisroel Karduner) lit up in me his fire! Inside him burned a fire! Every word - - “Key <for> malachov <His angels> yitzaveh <He will command> luch <for you> lishmorcha <to guard you> bichul <in all> diruchechu <your ways> (-said immediately after Shalom Alaichem, before Reeboan Kul)!” And the “Reeboan Kul Hu-oalumim” - he inserted in me a neshama (-soul), such!

“Adoan <Master> Kul <of all> Hanishumoas <the souls> (-the words following directly after 'Reeboan Kul Hu-oalumim')” - was new - - “Reeboan Kul Hu-oalumim” was a different - - a different thing, and when he came to “Adoan Kul Hanishumoas” I saw that he is passing out, he can't continue - - what he felt in this “Adoan Kul Hanishumoas!”

And similarly (-the next words of the song): “Adoan (Master of) Hashaloam (the peace)” - when he came to “Adoan Hashuloam” it was a new thing!…

And when he began to say “Melech Abeer (Mighty King),” “Melech (King)- -” with such a sort of sweetness! With such a sort of yearning to Hashem Yisburach – a type of hisbodidus!

And similarly, every “Melech (king – arranged alphabetically, one praise for each letter)” - (Saba sings with arousal:) “Melech Abeer <Mighty King>, Melech Baruch <Blessed King>, Melech Gadol <Great King>” - He couldn't continue! The holy Rebbe said (Life of Our Leader Rabbi Nachman, article 67), “G-d is great, we know nothing!” When he said, “Melech Gadol <Great King>” - I entered a type of Garden of Eden, such!….

And similarly with all of them – the entire order: “Melech Gadol <Great King>, Melech Dovair Shalom <King Whom Bespeaks Peace>, Melech Hadoor <Magnificent King>, Melech Vusik <Faithful King>, Melech Zuch <Pure King>, Melech Chai Hu-oalumim <King Who is Life of the Worlds>” - it was - - he imbued me with nehsamoas (-souls)! Every “Melech <king>” was a new neshama <soul>!…

(Saba sings:) “Melech <King Whom is> Toav <Good> Oomayteev <and Does Good To Others>” - this was such yearning! He felt in his heart the “Melech Toav Oomayteev!”

“Melech Yucheed Oomi-yoochud <King Whom is One and Unique>, Melech Kabeer <Powerful King>, Melech Loavaish Rachamim <King Who Wears Mercy>” - each one of these was a different world!

Afterwards when he finished “Melech Tumim Darkoa <King Whose Way Is Wholesome/Perfect> - afterwards begins: “Moadeh annee <I acknowledge gratefully> lifunechu <before You>” - “Moadeh annee lifunechu Hashem Eloakaye <my G-d> vailoakay <and the G-d of> avoaseye <my fathers>” - when he came to the words “al <on> kul <all> hachesed <the kindness> ashehr <that> usseesu <You did> eemudee <with me>” - he felt the “chessed <kindness>.”

He would go with me to have hisbodidus in Meron, by him Meron was his permanent place!… Nu, so we were in Meron, and he would go to do hisbodidus, so we went together, but afterwards he separated from me, he left me in place, and he went further along the way, he had his own business to speak which was not relevant to me at all. However, before he went away from me, he taught me that the first thing is that I should thank HY for the kindness which HY did with me – that I merited to draw close to the holy Rebbe'n - - the first thing should be thanks and gratitude, thanking HY, and afterwards I should beseech what I need, that is what he taught me! (*This is based on Likutay Halachos, Yoareh Daya, Laws of Interbreeding Animals 4:4, brought down in Outpouring of the Soul, article 80, see there at length).

And when he said the “Moadeh annee <I acknowledge gratefully> lifunechu <before You> … al <on> kul <all> hachesed <the kindness>” - he wasn't able to continue, and he said it again (to the melody of part of the prayer of Rosh Hashana); “al <on> kul <all> hachesed <the kindness> - - al kul - -” this melody of Rosh Hashana, the nusach (-manner) of Rosh Hashana - -

Our nusach (-manner) of Rosh Hashana is such yearning, that we know nothing of what it is. Today one probably doesn't see such (things), but what was (/it) done, what the holy Rebbe did with his men - - it is also done always.

He said the nusach (-manner) of Rosh Hashana, “the kindness, the kindness,” like that – our nusach (-manner) of Rosh Hashana, with such a sort of yearning, like one talks to Hashem Yisburach.

I remember R' Naftoli (Cohen o.b.m.) would pray on Rosh Hashana, I saw how he stands by the lectern (-where the chazan-cantor stands to lead the service) – praying before the lectern, but he didn't pray before the lectern, this R' Naftoli – he prayed before Hashem Yisburach, not before the lectern, before Hashem Yisburach!

He stood before the lectern, and once in while he would make with his hands to Hashem Yisburach, like – motions, like one speaks with people….

I remember his “Oonisaneh (and let us give (an accounting of)) Toakef (the formidable magnitude (of the day - - a very poignant powerful prayer describing the enormity of the judgment that takes place on Rosh Hashana)), “Oonisaneh Toakef” - he set in me – in the “Oonisaneh Toakef,” such - - “Oonisaneh toakef Kidooshas <the holiness> ha-yoam <of the day>, key <for> hoo <it is> noaru <awesome> vi-u-yoam <and dreadful>,” and further, all of it - -