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Who revives the dead with abundant mercies — revive me and sustain me and grant me merit through Your abundant mercies; and help me and save me that I merit from now to conquer my inclination and to hold all my desires in my hand always — even the permitted desires; and even on the days when eating and drinking are permitted: may I merit to hold even the desires that You have permitted to us — which are called half for you [chatzo lachem] — and to conduct myself even in them with great holiness and purity for Your Name alone; without any bodily desires at all.

Master of the Universe — say: Enough to my troubles; and hasten to redeem me with a complete redemption from all the desires. Have pity and compassion please upon my wretched soul — which has been greatly blemished through my evil desires; as You know. Have pity upon me from now according to the multitude of Your mercies; according to the multitude of Your lovingkindnesses; and give me strength and might and true counsel at every time; in such a manner that I merit to nullify all my desires entirely; until I merit to true life — eternal life in this world and in the World to Come. And even when the time of my departure from the world shall come — let there be no difference for me at all between life and after death; rather may everything be equal to me; and may I always merit to serve You in truth — both in my life in this world and after my passing to the World to Come; until I shall be alive forever even after my passing. And may I live and not die forever. And may I be included among the tzadikim of whom it is said that even in their death they are called living. I shall not die but live — and declare the deeds of G‑d [Psalms 118:17]. Return my soul to your rest — for Hashem has dealt bountifully with you. For You have delivered my soul from death; my eye from tears; my foot from stumbling. I shall walk before Hashem in the lands of the living [Psalms 116:7–9]. Not the dead shall praise G‑d; nor all who descend to silence. But we shall bless G‑d from now and forever — Halleluyah [Psalms 115:17–18]. For You have rescued my soul from death; have You not kept my feet from stumbling — so that I may walk before G‑d in the light of life? [Psalms 56:14]. For You shall not abandon my soul to the grave; You will not allow Your pious one to see the pit. You will make known to me the path of life; fullness of joys is in Your presence; pleasures are in Your right hand forever [Psalms 16:10–11]. Amen and Amen.

I merit through the true desire and will that is in the heart — to learn from within the supernal Book that is written upon the supernal Heart [sefer hanikhtav al halev haelyon] through the true tzadikim; for You listen and hear their words that each speaks in his place; and You join them together and write from them a Book of Remembrance for those who think in their hearts and who truly desire to learn Your Torah and to do Your will; as it is written: Then those who fear Hashem spoke to one another; and Hashem listened and heard; and a Book of Remembrance was written before Him for those who fear Hashem and who think upon His Name [Malachi 3:16]. Grant me merit also to receive and to draw upon myself a great illumination from this Heart — and to learn from within this Book; for I am very far from everything; but I await Your mercies and Your lovingkindnesses — that You grant me merit to true will and desire for You and for Your service and for Your Torah; in such a manner that I merit to return to You speedily in truth as Your good will desires. Have pity and compassion upon me through Your abundant mercies; through Your great mercies. Help me for I lean upon You — for You are the splendor of their strength; and by Your will may our horn be elevated [Psalms 89:18]. May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable before You — Hashem, my Rock and my Redeemer [Psalms 19:15]. Amen and Amen.