T101 (Tinyana) PNC - Tikkun Chatzois and Tehillim as Hisbodedus — Find Yourself in Every Pasuk

**Amar she-al-yedei amiras Tikkun Chatzois yecholin le-fareish sichaso es kol asher im levavoi kemo al-yedei hisbodedus.** Saying *Tikkun Chatzois* can be a complete hisbodedus — *if* one says it in the right register. **Ki mistama ein oimrim chatzois al he-avar** — one does not say Chatzois only about *the distant past* of churban Yerushalayim; *ve-ikar amiras chatzois hu al mah she-na'asah achshav im ha-adam*. **Ve-ke-she-yomar chatzois bi-bechinah zo, yecholin limtzo kol asher im levavoi be-toich amiras chatzois.** The bechinas churban that is *yours, right now, today* — find it inside the words of Tikkun Chatzois, and the *fixed* nusach becomes your *private* hisbodedus.

**Find yourself in every Tehillim, every techinah, every selichah.** *Ve-chein amiras Tehillim ve-cha-yoitzei tzarich lir'os, she-yimtzo es atzmoi be-toich kol mizmoirei Tehillim u-vetoich kol ha-techinois u-vakashois u-slichois ve-cha-yoitzei*. **U-vekal bi-feshitus, bli chochmois, yecholin limtzo es atzmoi be-toich kol ha-techinois u-vakashois — u-vifrat be-Tehillim, she-ne'emar bi-shvil klal Yisrael, bi-shvil kol echad ve-echad bi-frat.** Tehillim was said *for klal Yisrael* — *which means for every yochid in his own pratiyus*. *Kol milchamois ha-yetzer ha-ra* she-yesh alav, *ve-chol mah she-na'aseh imoi, ha-kol mevu'ar u-mefareish be-Tehillim*. Tehillim is *not* a book of someone-else's history; *kuloi ne'emar al milchamois ha-yetzer*, *she-heim ikar ha-oivim ve-ha-soin'im shel ha-adam, she-rotzim li-mno'oi mi-derech ha-chaim u-le-hoiridoi li-sheoil tachtiyois*.

**The ikkar of the whole avoidah — and the chizuk that does not let go.** *Ki ikkar klal ve-shoresh ve-yesoid shel kol ha-eitzois le-his-kareiv le-HaShem yisbarach, hu rak amiras Tehillim u-she'arei techinois u-vakashois ve-hisbodedus, le-fareish sichaso beinoi le-vein konoi, le-vakeish mi-lefonav, she-yekarvehu la-avodaso yisbarach* — *rak al-yedei zeh zoichin le-natze'ach ha-milchamah*. **Ve-af-al-pi she-nimtza'im kammah eitzois toivois be-sifrei Rabbeinu** — full of eitzois — *af-al-pi-chein al pi-rov kasheh la-adam le-kayem ha-eitzah be-atzmah*. **Al kein ha-ikkar — tefillois ve-techinois u-vakashois**, *yih'yeh eich she-yih'yeh*, *al kol panim yedabber be-fiv be-eizo bechinah she-hu, ve-yevakeish me-HaShem yisbarach tomid, she-yoitzi oisoi mei-choshech le-or ve-yachzireihu bi-tshuvah sheleimah be-emes, ve-al yiten domi lo ad she-ya'aneihu*. **Berachos 32a**: *she-tefillah tzricha chizuk*, ka-kasuv (Tehillim 27:14): **"kaveh el Hashem, chazak ve-ya'ametz libecha, ve-kaveh el Hashem,"** u-feirush Rashi: *ve-im loi tiskabel tefilascha — chazor ve-kavei. Ve-chein le-olam, ad yashkif ve-yere Hashem mi-shamayim.*

**"Tzrichin le-chazor zos alafim pe'amim."** *Kvar mevu'ar zois bi-divareinu kammah pe'amim — ach tzrichin lichpoil u-lishnois zois u-le-zachor zos be-chol yom va-yom. Ki yesh kammah ve-chammah minei chalisheis u-bilbulim al zeh bli shi'ur, mah she-ein ha-peh yachoil le-dabber ve-ha-leiv lachshov*. The chalishus and the bilbulim on this one nekudah — *to keep crying out to HaShem yisbarach, no matter what* — are *bli shi'ur*. *Al kein tzrichin lachzor zos alafim pe'amim, kedei she-yischazek vi-yes-ametz la-amoid al amdoi, le-his-paleil u-le-his-chaneien lifnei HaShem yisbarach tomid, she-yekarvehu la-avodasoi, yih'yeh eich she-yih'yeh*. **"Nisa levaveinu el kapayim el Eil ba-shamayim. Ki loi yitoish Hashem es amoi ve-nachalaso loi ya'azoiv. Chasdei Hashem ki loi tamnu, ki loi chalu rachamav."**