PART SIXTEEN All Words of Torah — How to Be a Jew (cont.) · He Went at Midnight to the Kotel We Are Distant and Must Seek Ways · There Is No Time for Honor The Main Thing of All Main Things · Torah Teachings and Prayers Hoshana Rabbah · Hisbodidus Is a Segulah · It Changes the Person Completely Now a Wonder Has Been Revealed · All Israel Will Come Here Bound to H"Y — Child, Small Girl · Messiah Will Come Source Lines ~10389–11200

Our holy Master said — all his days, always: "I never drank even water before prayer — from midnight until after prayer!" He did not taste even water! I saw this — and I too fulfilled this! Not to drink water before... I saw this! Never — I never drank even water before prayer in my life! I saw this — I did this too — not to taste anything before prayer — not even water! I enjoyed this. I saw that our holy Master did not taste before prayer even water! Then there was such strength — I did not want to — I did not want this — for the body wants to eat, wants to sleep, wants... Our holy Master said to it: "Not according to your will — according to My will!" I also saw that our holy Master did not taste even water before prayer — he had such strength as if it were a carcass — as something that is not good — that is forbidden — before prayer: no eating and no drinking! And I remember the style and manner of the service of H"Y — I remember that Reb Yisroel would say prayers! His prayers were with sweetness — with such cleaving as if he were eating everything... He had such strength! I read that our holy Master before prayer did not taste even water — and I remember that such strength entered me that I did not want to taste before prayer even water!

It is written in the conversations of Rabbainu — he did not want to eat! They gave him at night — his mother gave him something to eat — and he did not want to — he did not want to eat! So the mother said to Rabbainu: "From where will you have strength? You eat nothing — how will you have strength to serve H"Y?!" So he said: "I have another strength — not from food! Only from other things — not from food. I have strength — I receive strength from this — from other things! And I also have by me people like this who do not want to taste before prayer at all — and who live with the wisdom of life — not from other things! For he has vitality — the wisdom of life..." We have — the people of Israel — we have such a merit that we have such a Rebbe who teaches us! Not to eat and not to drink — only to serve H"Y! We receive all strength from the wisdom of life! "All Jews must come to live in the Land of Israel!" All the strength — all the strength is from the wisdom of life — this is all our life! (What did you find at the Kotel — Likutay Tefillos?) Yes! (Today at the Kotel there is much Likutay Tefillos!) Yes?! (There are many writings — much Likutay Moharan — much Tikkun HaKlali!) Yes?! This is a sign of Messiah! The time has come for Likutay Tefillos to be revealed in the world! We know nothing — what actions it performs in the world! His every word is all our rectification and the vitality of the entire world!

Blessed be H"Y that we have merited in our generations to such a light and such a wonder! This is very good — but this is Breslov: "Very good — but this is Breslov!" Someone came to the Kotel and said Likutay Tefillos — and he said: "This is all my vitality!" So they told him this is from Breslov! I was among the first who went to war against the entire world! From France he found Likutay Tefillos at the Kotel — so he said: "I cannot... I must have it!" (Who is this from France?) I have forgotten his name! He came into the world only for me! A small piece of paper — it conquers the entire world! This is the hospital of the entire world! It will be revealed — it will be revealed — the light of H"Y — the light of Messiah! This is very good! They said to him: "What are you saying? What are you saying?! This is from Breslov?!" He said to him: "Let it be from Breslov — but it is good! Let it be from Breslov — but this is good!" Likutay Tefillos will conquer the entire world! Can receive the entire world! There will be great joy in the world when Likutay Tefillos is revealed in the world! That every word is the vitality of the entire world! It gives vitality to all the enemies and all the wicked! And I gave him Likutay Tefillos — he came to me and said: "This is very good! I want some too!" A piece of paper — and it was the vitality of the world! Even a small piece of paper — it conquers the entire world! This is the hospital of the entire world! (Likutay Tefillos gave birth to the Kotel — gave birth to everything — all the Torah teachings!) Oy vay — I did not know what this is! I did not know! The entire world will conquer the entire world — "Breslov but it is very good!" Torah and prayer of our holy Master! He is our Rebbe of the entire world!

I came to Reb Moshe Blau and told him: "I have ten children and I have no bread to give them!" He said: "I will see — I will speak — I will speak with this — I..." He spoke nothing and nothing! I had no bread to give them! One son passed away — passed away from hunger! He became swollen — and his soul went out from hunger! I am not saying falsehood — so it was! One son passed away — became swollen and passed away from hunger! The children grew up — and blessed be H"Y — one passed away and nine remained. I had a burden — ten children! Today I have no burden — they married and I became free! Yes — they would say: "Father bread! Bread! Bread!" I had nothing! He went abroad on a ship and passed away on the ship — Reb Moshe Blau. He said to me: "I will see — I will arrange — I will speak" — and did nothing! Blessed be H"Y — today I have no burden of children! They grew up and they have bread to eat — and I — I already have freedom!

The eve of Sukkos — I had no sukkah — I had no four species! Blessed be H"Y — I have the four species and I have a very beautiful sukkah! What can the world say about this — about Yemay Moharnat? I did not have Yemay Moharnat! One could not obtain it! In short — I merited to see Yemay Moharnat! Oy — I saw this! I said: "It is worthwhile that I am here — that I am in the world!" Ay — Yemay Moharnat! Yemay Moharnat! Yemay Moharnat! One must say "Ashrainu!" for every word of Yemay Moharnat! Ashrainu! Ashrainu! Ashrainu! Ashrainu! Not Kiddush and not Friday — oy — Yemay Moharnat! Ashrainu, ashrainu, ashrainu! The entire world must say only "Ashrainu!" — only one word — "Ashrainu, ashrainu, ashrainu — how good is our portion and how pleasant is our lot!" How does one open the book at the beginning — how? Yemay Moharnat! Oy — how fortunate are we that Yemay Moharnat exists in the world! And our holy Master says: "Nachman and Noson laugh at the entire world!" He made Yemay Moharnat — he laughed at the entire world! Yemay Moharnat laughs at the entire world! Oy — until I merited that it come — that Yemay Moharnat come to me! One could not obtain it or buy it — they did not print Yemay Moharnat — there was no book! Our fate — we already have Yemay Moharnat! The entire world will need to say "Ashrainu — Yemay Moharnat!" What this is! And what is Likutay Halachos! Today one can buy and read Likutay Halachos and all of Rabbainu's books! The opponents must dig graves — to bury themselves from the greatness of the shame — for every word of Likutay Halachos and Likutay Moharan! Ashrainu — how good is our portion! Oy! Ashrainu! Ashrainu! All the night — "Ashrainu, ashrainu, ashrainu, ashrainu!" We must sing from village to village and declare! Declare! Declare! That "ashrainu" exists in the world! The opponents will need to hire workers and dig graves and bury themselves from the greatness of the shame!

I will tell you a little of my life — I have no desires at all! Not desire for women — not any desire! I am clean... a thought — Heaven forbid — could steal in somehow — but I am completely clean! Completely like a newborn child! (I believe you.) I do not believe in myself — how is it possible?! All the time a person lives he has his trials from all the desires! And I have nothing — nothing! I do not need to fight! No! There is no battle — none! My mind is holy — and there is in it no idol — no scent of this world's desires! However much I tell you — it does not yet reach a small fraction! (I feel this, Saba.) Yes? (I feel that you are a secret from all the world.) There is nothing in me — how can such a thing be?! A person all the time he lives — wants all the desires! Eating and... all the desires! And I have nothing — nothing! The desire sees me — it flees! It flees! I have no scent of any desire! Only food — no! But desire? The desire that sees me — it flees! Does not know where! I have no desire — no scent of desire! (Rabbainu promised that whoever draws close to him truly — he will make him exactly like me!) Yoa, yoa, yoa! Exactly like me! I have no desires! Desire for women — desires... I have nothing! I say the Tikkun HaKlali — if there is no Tikkun? Every person sometimes needs... and I do not say the Tikkun HaKlali! (At what age did you already merit this?) This is approximately seventy-eighty approximately! Suddenly it fled? No, no! It did not remain — as if there is no desire in the world! As if there is nothing of this world in the world!

I laugh at desire! I laugh at it! "Go! Go! What?! I do not need it! Go! Just go!" One does not need it! It flees! I do not understand this! A person — by nature — even an old man has desire for this, for that, for that — and I wake up in the morning and I am completely clean! I have no desire! None! Of anything! (I felt this. I also want — how does one do this?) I cannot even speak of desire at all! I... it stinks like a carcass — I cannot bear the smell of desires — of desire! (But Saba — I still have all the desires.) I am completely clean — like a child born right now — I am completely clean! How much a person must serve H"Y and pray greatly to H"Y and weep before H"Y — that He remove him from desire! I no longer need any of this — I do not need to weep and to shout! (How fortunate are you!) How fortunate are you? [I] — in life I am clean like one who is dead! I feel no desire! This is a matter where there are no words and a person has no strength — how is it possible that a person who lives in this world has no desire? At all?! I myself wonder at myself — how can such a thing be?! A person — all the time he lives — has desires! How is it possible to live without desires... Blessed be H"Y — it seems to me that the entire world is mad! Only I found one man in the world — Reb Yisroel Karduner and our holy Master! (Saba — Reb Yisroel Karduner — was he also like this?) Yes — he too was clean — clean — clean! But this that I... I do not understand how it is possible to live in the world without desires at all! How is it possible?!

However much I tell you — it does not even reach a small fraction! (Saba — this is a great wonder.) Yes! But I wonder about myself — how is it possible to live in this world without desires?! How is it possible?! What in the world? Where am I?... What is this?... Walking clothed among the world and having no desire?! What? What kind of world is this?! What? Where am I? How is such a thing possible?! How is it possible to live without desires? One does not need to fight at all — I have no desire! Whoever hears such a thing — he laughs! What? Either dead — what? There is nothing?! I am alive! Perhaps you will come with me — let us go! We will be two madmen in the world? (If only! I also want it — but I believe that through Rabbainu's power it is possible.) Through Rabbainu's power it is possible! Yes! H"Y... how is it possible to live in the world without desires?! Only food — only a little food! But one does not need all of this! (I said to someone — if Breslov Chassidim knew who Yisroel Ber is — they would throw away all the honor and all the money and the fame — and they would search and seek to draw close — that he bring them close to Rabbainu!) [Saba laughs!] But as I tell you — I cannot understand how it is possible to live in the world without any desire?! Our holy Master said: "Give me your hearts and I already..." Hearts — the heart is the soul — all vitality is the heart! "Give me your hearts and I will do what I can!" He will sanctify and purify each one of Israel with such teshuvah! At the coming of Messiah — Messiah will already find everything prepared and ready! Our holy Master has already prepared everything! Such a thing has never yet been in the world since the day of creation — has never been! Our holy Master said: "A chidush like me has not yet been in the world!" And this is not even a drop from the ocean of what he merited!

The desires fled from me! They became angry at me — completely! Like a get [writ of divorce]! No power — and no — Heaven forbid — blemish whatsoever! Now there is no need for any thought — for any defective thing — for any bad thing! From our holy Master! The Slonimer Chassidim — they persecuted me all my life! And blessed be H"Y — I was strong in truth! And not... and I was strong against everyone! I wonder greatly — all the time a person lives he has desires! And I? The desires became angry at me completely! As if there is no desire in the world! I have no battle — none! I do not need any work and any battle — I am as if there are no desires in the world! No — there are none in the world! They fled! I do not need the mikveh or the Tikkun HaKlali! I have no desires for women — as if women were not created in the world! As if there are no women in the world! I have no blemish of desire — blemish of the covenant! I am clean in this always! I am in this through the power of Rabbainu of blessed memory — it is impossible to understand such a thing! (And we — how can we...?) To pray and to weep before H"Y and to pray always that we merit to purify ourselves and to break the desires! (And H"Y will hear us?) Certainly! One must believe that H"Y hears every word — every prayer from us — and helps and wants to help! Certainly! Prayer — Psalms — prayer — hisbodidus — to speak with H"Y as we speak! This is a new thing of Messiah — that the entire world laughs at it! "What — he speaks with H"Y?!" The entire world is completely distant from this! Messiah — he will introduce into the world the light of Rabbainu of blessed memory! (Soon?) Soon! This depends on us — on our hearts — as much as one wants and prays — so one merits to this!

I have no blemish — Heaven forbid — not in thought and not in any matter in the world! This is the power of Rabbainu of blessed memory! (But you have other battles.) Yes, certainly — but this is a great matter! The battle of desire for women — the entire world is submerged in this! Yes — it is simply automatic — the body wants all desires! But we are Jews and we have Torah — the Torah teaches us everything — how to conduct ourselves and how to do everything! You know that she drew close to me? Her husband was quarreling with me in great battle: "What do you want from me! I need desires! What is this?! A wife without desire?!" He was... "Go from me — do not come here anymore! I need desire! I need the wife with desire!" He had great hatred for me — there was great dispute! To break the desires — or he said one cannot live — to divorce! It cannot be like this! Her husband had hatred for me: "What is this — what do you want from me?!" Today he is full of desires and at peace — peace was made! The Tikkun HaKlali? I do not say it — whoever stumbles and falls — Heaven forbid — he needs a remedy! And the Tikkun HaKlali is a remedy! But I say the Tikkun HaKlali — nothing — not once a week and not once a month! Nothing! (Already many years you do not say the Tikkun HaKlali?) Yes. (How long?) I have not thought and do not remember! Reb Naftali Cohen was in Jerusalem — he was a great sage — old and wise! He said to me: "Whoever does not blemish the covenant — Heaven forbid — then he does not need to say the Tikkun HaKlali! It is only for one who has a battle and needs to cleanse and awaken to do teshuvah!" But I do not say Tikkun HaKlali — I do not need it! I have no blemish — no thought — no battle! I cannot understand this! (Is this since you received the Petek?) I do not remember! I had very hard battles — and blessed be H"Y I was completely released! I left this completely! Completely! I think perhaps fifteen years that I am like this — perhaps more! The body wants desires — the body all the time it lives has battles — particularly the main desire — desire for women — me? As if there is no desire for women in the world! As if there is none! Reb Yisroel of blessed memory — he did this! His entire service — all that he engaged in — to bring me close to Rabbainu — only for this — to be clean from blemish of the covenant! So I — I am as if not of this world! As if there is no woman in the world — as if there is no desire in the world — as if there is nothing! Not in dream and not while awake — nothing — nothing! I do not need to fight with thoughts! Do not need anything! This is a wonder from Rabbainu! "A chidush like me has not yet been in the world!" And this is not even a drop from the ocean of what he merited!

Oy vay, oy vay! H"Y does to me like this and I do to Him like this... He sees that I am not in sadness — so good — be here! Reb Yisroel — how he would argue — he had arguments — arguing with H"Y! He spoke with me about hisbodidus. Nu — perhaps who knows what... Glad — we are glad! But it [the Redemption]... but she is distant and she is close — she is very close! Oy — what we have! We have such a merciful Father! Even that He loves us! He speaks with H"Y as with a friend! And such self-sacrifice! Such faith! He guides us — he rectifies us! And such a light that does not exist in the world — such miracles and wonders and kindnesses as have not yet been revealed to the world! Such kindnesses and such miracles that have never been revealed! Nu — shall we go for a walk? I cannot go for a walk — I cannot anything — but... Miracles that exist today have not been at any time! Such lights have not yet been revealed in the world — that have not yet been revealed in the world! There is — Rabbainu has already come into the world! We already have everything — everything! All the Torah and all the salvations and all the wonders! Yes — blessed be H"Y! Every night it seems to me — this night — the last night! H"Y... I have no strength to live! H"Y every day renews me — a new heart! I remember when I was a child — I remember everything!

We have such wondrous news — that has not yet been revealed in the world! That is all our life! Our holy Master has already come into the world — we already have everything! All the Torah and all the kindnesses and all the wonders! Reb Nachman revealed that he is entirely new! That he revealed such springs of wisdom that have not yet been revealed even through the Rashbi! He revealed to his student — Reb Noson! He revealed to us who Reb Nachman is! Such a light! Such a wonder! Has never yet been in the world — he is entirely new! You too bring all the money you have — only to print Rabbainu's books! Through this there will be a new world! Until now Breslov was despised... Blessed be H"Y — now one sees that it is truth! Every single day such life — such good life — what we have! Every night it seems to me this night is the last night — H"Y... I have no strength to live! H"Y every day renews me — a new heart! I remember when I was a child — I remember everything!

I danced alone — the sons did not dance with me! Do you know who I am? Our holy Master said to his people: "Do you know who I am? I am — Na Nach Nachma Nachman MayUman! I am the Rebbe of all Israel! Na Nach Nachma Nachman MayUman!" Our holy Master said to me: "And concerning you I have said — my fire will burn until the coming of Messiah!" So I must be there until the end! And Messiah will come and receive the letter! Every word he left us in his books — he said that every word is all the Torah and all the Tzadikim and all of Israel! Thus he can introduce all the Torah — his every word is our life — our healing — our salvation! His every word that he left us — so he said — and so one sees! Nu — do you feel better? Na Nach! Already it became good! Only Na Nach Nachma Nachman MayUman — this is everything! All the Torah and all of Israel and everything! All the healings and all the salvations — everything! With one word — a universal melody! Na Nach Nachma Nachman MayUman! And it is a great mitzvah to always be in joy! The entire world sings this — even the goyim sing this! He revives and rectifies and renews all of Israel! And when Messiah comes there will be a new world! Not the world of now — a new world! What there is now in the world — they will not know — they know nothing!

I — Na Nach Nachma Nachman MayUman! I?! I — Na Nach Nachma Nachman MayUman! Do you know who I am? I will inform you! I — Na Nach Nachma Nachman MayUman! The entire world does not know who I am! I will inform you — I — Na Nach Nachma Nachman MayUman! This is everything! Do you already know who I am? Where is the television? Where is the latest news?! What is with them?! They have no sense! All the television must come here! What is this?!... And the Rebbe... one must search greatly for a Rebbe! A Rebbe who can help us! The Rebbe of the world is Rabbainu — he is the Rebbe of the entire world — of all Israel! The Rebbe of the Torah! Of all Israel! How fortunate are we that we have such a Rebbe! The entire world must know who the Rebbe is! The Rebbe is — Na Nach Nachma Nachman MayUman! This is the Rebbe of all Israel! "Ashrainu — how good is our portion — that we have such a Rebbe!" The Rebbe has already prepared for us Likutay Moharan, Likutay Tefillos, Likutay Halachos, Likutay Eytzos — he has already prepared everything for us! For each and every person the healings and salvations and rectifications! "What is this? Where is the radio? Where is the latest news?!" To inform the entire world who I am! I — Na Nach Nachma Nachman MayUman! The entire world does not know who I am — and I will inform you! I — Na Nach Nachma Nachman MayUman!

From Jerusalem and from Chevron he came to Tiberias — and through this a connection was made between us! And there will yet be a light — such a light as has never been! That everyone will cast off all the desires and everyone will want only to serve H"Y truly! One can merit everything — all... Whoever wants to strengthen himself with strong will — to bring the light of the books into every home in Israel! And there will be the complete Redemption! "Be strong and courageous!" Na Nach Nachma Nachman MayUman — this sweetens all the troubles and all the judgments! What? This is a matter — "Strengthen yourself in faith — strengthen yourself!" Our holy Master — only to remember his name: Nachman MayUman — Na Nach Nachma Nachman MayUman! This sweetens all the troubles and all the judgments and all the sins! We do not know! What is this? That we have merited in these generations — we have merited to know of this — of this secret! Na Nach Nachma Nachman MayUman! ("I hereby bind myself to all the true Tzadikim of our generation and to all the true Tzadikim who rest in the earth — the holy ones who are in the land — true Tzadikim!") Na Nach Nachma Nachman MayUman!

Let us go house to house! (Here is the walking stick!) [And Saba laughs greatly!] We will conquer four homes — five homes — and go! There will be a new fashion — everyone will want to sell Rabbainu's books! Then there will be a fashion throughout the entire world! A new fashion — such a time will be! Yes — it is coming — it is going and fast! Children will come: "Perhaps there is a book of Sipuray Ma'asiyos? We want to read! Give me! Give me!" What do we have? We have drivers! Good! Let us give — take me to the table! And I will sit at the table and I will drink coffee! And it will be written in the newspapers — in all the newspapers — that there is now a new fashion in the Land of Israel! Everyone will want to come! It will be written: "On the car — new fashion — selling the books of Rabbainu Nachman!" Then this is a new thing! The main thing of everything — the main Torah — the main faith — the main teshuvah — the main thing of everything! He heals and strengthens! And he said that he can heal even a sick person who has no remedy! Our holy Master — he is the grandson of the Ba'al Shem Tov! Adel — the daughter of [the Ba'al Shem Tov] gave birth to Feiga — and Feiga gave birth to Rabbainu Nachman!

I had a dream last night — that the entire world was laughing at us! I was with Reb Yisroel — two people! The entire world laughed: "They are Breslov! One must not stand near them! They are Breslov!" He and Reb Noson — they laugh at the entire world! I and Reb Noson — laughing at the entire world! We already have Sipuray Ma'asiyos — where every word is worth more than the entire world! We already have Likutay Moharan and Likutay Eytzos! We have what to rejoice! The entire world will dance — in every street they will dance! From the greatness of the joy — we already have blessed be H"Y the story of "the Master of Prayer!" The entire world will dance and rejoice! We already have the story of the Seven Beggars! The Seven Beggars — one was... and one was blind! The greatness of the joy! The world will dance — in every place — in every home — in every street — they will dance and rejoice! We already have — the Deaf Beggar — the Blind Beggar! What joy! (Saba? What about the Beggar who has no legs?) The Beggar? The Blind Beggar — the Lame Beggar — the Seventh Beggar... (What is the end of the story? Saba?) Wait! Wait! Wait! We only pray to H"Y about everything — and from this — what will be will be! From this such joy is made — in all the worlds! But without this? There is no joy and no life and nothing! Oy, oy, oy, oy!

The story of the Master of Prayer?... There is no story of a Master of Prayers — only "in the Sipuray Ma'asiyos!" Only one — in the entire world! Such stories — of the Master of Prayer — of the Beggars — they will dance and rejoice in every home — in every street! There will be only joy and dancing! We already have the Beggar! We already have the story of the Master of Prayer! Are there such stories in the world outside of Breslov? The entire world did not have — one word from a Beggar! One word! And now we have all the Beggars! Why did our holy Master call them by the name "Beggars?" Beggars — this is a sign that one pleads before H"Y! A Beggar always prayed to H"Y: "Give me! Give me! Give me!" What joy will there be in the entire world? In every home and in every place — and all the children will be glad and dancing! We already have the Deaf Beggar — the Blind Beggar — we already have! Such joy — Ashrainu! Ashrainu! Ashrainu!

Perhaps we will go a little and make ourselves glad — as if we are glad! Even though joy is distant from us — but it is distant and it is close — it is very close! What we have — we have such a merciful Father who loves us so greatly! There is the Master of the Petek — and there is the Petek! All the world will come — one must buy airplanes — an airplane agent throughout the world! (There will be free flights for you everywhere — "The Master of the Petek has arrived!" This will be a great honor.) Yes!