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And as we traveled homeward to Nemirov — we passed through the holy community of Dashiv where there was a gathering of our anshei sh'lomaynu. And I spoke to their hearts that they should pledge money as capital toward the printing expenses of Sefer Likutay Moharan Tinyanna. And they immediately accepted upon themselves with love and raised their voices in pledge of a certain sum.

And afterward I came home with a broken and crushed heart — like an orphan without a father — wandering and with none to seek. And Hashem also arranged that I was immediately compelled to observe the seven days of mourning. For close to my arrival home — my younger brother had passed away at my father's house, may his light shine. And they had wished to conceal it from me. But one person informed me. And I was compelled to observe the seven days. And so the previous year too — at the time when the holy Tzaddik the rav of Berdichev had passed away — there too it befell me similarly — that I was compelled to observe seven days through the same kind of matter. And this too was for the good. And blessed be Hashem who made everything beautiful in its time. For certainly it was fitting to observe seven days for holy Tzadikim such as these. May Hashem Blessed be He comfort us quickly through our righteous Mashiach — for we have no complete consolation for our brokenness until the Comforter of Zion and Jerusalem comes — speedily in our days. Amen. And behold — during the seven days — a certain rav came to me — a student of the Gaon of Woltchisk and the son of that Gaon — in order to take charge of the money belonging to Rabbi Pinchas son of the Gaon mentioned above — who was the son-in-law of Rabbainu zichrono livracha and was then in Eretz Yisroel with his wife — she being the daughter of Rabbainu zichrono livracha the righteous Marat Miriam zichronah livracha. And they wished to have the money transferred to their hands. But we did not wish to give them anything — for if it had been in their hands it would likely have been lost and so on. And blessed be Hashem — in our hands the money bore fruit. And we sent them with honor a large sum every year. And they were supported with honor and great comfort all the days of their lives — until they passed away in peace. And afterward a large sum remained. And we divided it among their heirs.

And behold — throughout all that winter — it did not occur to me to leave Nemirov and establish my residence here in Breslov. And it seemed as though it was impossible to now draw people close to his holy ways and so on. Only in myself I had many thoughts: how to strengthen myself to draw close to Hashem Blessed be He now — also now — through the Torah teachings, conversations, stories, and hints that I had received from him zichrono livracha. For I knew and believed that in the very many very many words that I had merited to hear from him in his lifetime — in them there was sufficient to enliven me always and guide me on the road also now after his passing — forever. And all that passed through my mind then is impossible to explain. But this did not occur to me: to seek for myself a place where I could speak from Rabbainu zichrono livracha — to make known to people his mighty deeds and so on. This did not occur to my mind at all. And in Nemirov it was impossible to speak of him zichrono livracha — except before a few of our anshei sh'lomaynu. For most were opponents and objectors. But how great are the works of Hashem — very deep are His thoughts. And all that happens in the world — all of it is for our sake. For every person is obligated to say: for my sake the world was created — especially for the sake of the true Tzaddik and those who cleave to him.