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ימי מוהרנ"ת - Yemei Moharnat
וְהִנֵּה הָיָה לִי צַעַר גָּדוֹל, כִּי אָפַס הַכֶּסֶף אֶצְלִי בְּבוֹאִי לְאֶרֶץ יִשְׂרָאֵל, וְלא הָיָה לִי עַל הוֹצָאוֹת הַחֲזָרָה וּמַרְאֵה הַמָּקוֹם שֶׁהָיָה לִי עַל מְעוֹת רַבִּי שְׁלמה שֶׁהָיָה בְּיַד רַבִּי דָּוִד, לא רָצָה לְסַלֵּק לִי כִּי-אִם חֲמִשִּׁים גְּרוּשׁ וְהָיָה לִי צַעַר גָּדוֹל מְאד מִזֶּה, וּמֵחֲמַת זֶה נִתְעַכַּבְתִּי בִּטְבֶרְיָא עַל שַׁבָּת הַשְּׁנִיָּה הַנִּזְכֶּרֶת לְעֵיל וּבְיוֹם א' פָּרָשַׁת בָּלָק חָמַל ה' עָלַי, וְהִזְמִין לִי בְּדֶרֶךְ נֵס וְהַשְׁגָּחָה נִפְלָאָה שֶׁבִּהְיוֹתִי יוֹשֵׁב שָׁם בִּסְעֻדַּת שַׁחֲרִית אֵצֶל אִישׁ אֶחָד שֶׁעָשָׂה סְעֻדָּה עֲבוּרֵנוּ, וְשָׁם הִזְמִין לָנוּ הַשֵּׁם יִתְבָּרַךְ שֶׁפִּתְאם בָּאָה אִשָּׁה אַחַת וְאָמְרָה לִי שֶׁתִּשְׁלַח עִמִּי דַּיְקָא כְּלֵי כֶסֶף, וְיֵשׁ לִי רְשׁוּת לְמָכְרָם בַּאֲלֶכְּסַנְדְּרִיָּא, וְלִמְסֹר הַמָּעוֹת לְיַד בְּנָהּ בְּחוּץ לָאָרֶץ וְנָתַתִּי שֶׁבַח וְהוֹדָיָה לְהַשֵּׁם יִתְבָּרַךְ שֶׁחָמַל עָלַי בְּהַשְׁגָּחָה נִפְלָאָה בְּמָקוֹם רָחוֹק מִבֵּיתִי כָּזֶה וְלא עָזַב חַסְדּוֹ מֵעִמִּי בְּעֶזְרָתוֹ הַגְּדוֹלָה:
On Tuesday — Erev Rosh Chodesh Tammuz — I wished to be then in Meiron. And I had in mind to travel there on Monday — and to sleep there. And there were obstacles for us about this. And also on Tuesday morning there were several obstacles. But Hashem Blessed be He helped me — and I broke through the obstacles with Hashem's help. And I traveled to Meiron — I and my companion Rabbi Yehuda Eliezer — and Rabbi Aharon of Grodik joined us on the way. And another man whom we hired to go with us. And also on the walk to Meiron — I was at the grave of Rabbi Yosei of Yukrat. And we came to Meiron close to midday. And we entered the awesome study hall of Rabbi Shimon Bar Yochai and his son Rabbi Elazar. And we said there Psalms and supplications and requests at their awesome graves. But I was then very weak. And I did not merit to pour out my heart there as I wished. From there we went. And we were at the grave of the Tanna Rabbi Yochanan the Sandal-Maker. And near him there was his pit — where he used to tan hides. And at the grave of Rabbi Yochanan mentioned above — Hashem Blessed be He helped me — and I became somewhat more aroused.
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